Monday, February 18, 2013
I lost another friend to cancer.
I never met RaNae in person, but were online friends. We first "met" on the Yuku message boards; we were both on boards for cat lovers and avid book readers, and we liked a lot of the same kinds of books. After a few years on Yuku, Facebook came along and message boards weren't as popular anymore; at least the ones I belonged too. We stayed in touch through Facebook though. We first bonded over cats and books, and later, cancer. She was one of my biggest encouragers when I was first diagnosed, then, about a year ago, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer.
It all sounded so hopeful at the beginning; she had surgery, and then she would have chemo and would be fine. But the chemo was so hard on her; it was stopped and started again so many times, until her poor body just could not take any more. I was hoping that after a break from chemo, she would be fine; it was easy to tell myself that since I wasn't actually seeing her person, having faith and hope came easy to me with all the miles between us. Then, a few days ago, her husband posted on her page that it would not be much longer before she was called home. Still, it came as a shock to me when I found out she died peacefully Saturday night. Her husband said they had just put her to bed for the night; she seemed to have been feeling a little better, she had a "good" day under the circumstances and seemed to be breathing a little better. Around 8:45pm, he left the room to get something for the nurse and when he returned, RaNae was gone.
I believe that she knew that she only had hours left that day; she had a strong faith, and I think knowing that she would be called home soon and no longer in pain left a sense of peace in her heart, so maybe that was why she seemed to be doing a little better that day.
Even though we never met in person, we "talked" a lot online. It's still hard for me to believe she is gone. Having thousands of miles between us didn't keep us from becoming friends, as sad as it is to lose her, I treasure the time I had her in my life. Rest in peace, my friend, I will try to comfort myself with the thought that you are no longer hurting, and one day we will meet again, and in person when the time comes.