Hard Week - Will I Recover?
Monday, February 18, 2013
I really and truly thought I had it all under control. I re-visited Spark because I was having leg problems that I still, to a point, can blame on being overweight. No, not obese but hanging there in the delicate balance between the two descriptions of HOW BIG AM I??? So I jumped in whole heartedly and then took off on a three month vacation. I feel very, very, bad that I would use that as an excuse. I mean, WHO gets to take three months off from life??? So I know I'm very lucky in that but still...
I've been really good about exercise and pretty good about eating but now we are hit with guests. Lots of guests. Today will be cousins, my son, his wife, my grandchildren and my daughter-in-law's parents. And we will eat. I'm sure. We will eat out so I have pretty much nothing here to offer anyone (on purpose) but I keep looking back at yesterday's freefall in the eating world and worrying. Am I on my way back to the daily naughties???
Yesterday's food intake bears repeating. Maybe seeing it written down will gross me out enough to put a lid on today. Breakfast was French Toast with REAL maple syrup and orange juice. This was the most sane meal of the day. Snack of two big fig newtons, and lunch was a fish burger, a lovely fried concoction of catfish topped with lettuce and tomato on a BIG bun. Crackers and cheese - lots - while I awaited cousins' arrival and then more after they were here. Dinner, WORLD FAMOUS BBQ ordered out. Mine was about half a chicken (all dark meat) with cole slaw, green beans and a hearty slab of delicious cornbread. Orders were to make sure lots of butter went on the cornbread. I am SHE WHO MUST OBEY. Then dessert! A "walk" of maybe 1/4 mile round trip to the frozen yogurt place where we filled cups with coffee yogurt and topped with chocolate chips, walnuts and chocolate sauce. OMG. I feel wicked!
Today's breakfast was a big banana but it's 10 AM and I can feel the hungries coming on. I can only hope today's menu has broiled written all over it. I'm not feeling confident. I DID do a quick almost two mile walk. I know that's good but I just am very, very worried about my mind set. Hoping, hoping, hoping that writing this all down will keep me mindful.
OH, and don't even START about how someone spilled Downton Abbey last night. Couldn't watch it. My one and only show and someone actually posted in caps on Facebook the shocking developments. Almost had to eat something really bad but I was STRONG!!!
Fingers crossed for today.