So .. lets be honest... I haven't been exactly on here being active as of late. Nor have I been behaving myself when it comes to eating and exercising.

About a month and half ago.. I was working out and eating SUPER healthy... and i had NO reason to gain weight... and yet when i weighed in i gained 2 lbs... I was SUPER confused and OOBER frustrated! and i went a bit hay wire, with eating, for about a week.. but then got back on track and decided to put it behind me.. and go forward!

But I seem to be (the last 3 weeks) stuck between a rock and hard place! Even more so then before.... Not only did i have to figure out that perplexing 2 lbs

BUT...

For health reasons (outside of the obvious) I have been placed on a EXTREMELY HIGH estrogen birth control pills. Which has essentially made me gain weight.. And yes I do know part of me gaining the weight is the amount of junk I have been craving..(and yes CRAVING not wanting... but actual NEED/Craving).... But i also know its not just my choices of what I eat.. its the actual meds,,,

I have brought it up to my dr.. and he said that's part of the course with these kinds of meds... give it the full 3 months and if you gain 25 lbs or more then we can talk!!!!

25 POUNDS?!?!?!?!

i then calmly explained to him my pre existing conditions cant allow (not only my WANT for weight loss) for a lot of weigh gain... heart condition... asthma.... cancer.... depression... and the list goes on...

I said I would try the three months (because it is working in the way it is supposed to)....

BUT.....

well there is my rock and my FAT place!

I am frustrated and am not sure how to get back to where i need to be,,, and lose weight.... and stop the cravings... and be successful.... AND be able to take these pills like I need to...