Monday, February 18, 2013
It is funny that I listened to todays program and I asked myself 'What is my goal?' Of course, I want to lose weight but why? I am relatively healthy, I exercise, I do not limit myself with any activity, so why? First, I do not like to think of myself of fat. AND, I am appalled when I am referred to being fat. The other day I went by one of my jobsites and talked to a subcontractor. Later on I stopped back by the jobsite and spoke with my foreman. He mentioned the subcontractor told him some FAT chick stopped and talked to him. HE WAS TALKING ABOUT ME. I started laughing. But, really, it is not funny. I do not want to be the fat chick. Yes I want to be healthy but I also want to be able to wear a swimsuit at the beach and not be horrified with how I look. I want to paddleboard without feeling like a whale on a paddleboard. Do I have to be a size 2? NO. Do I have to weigh 120 lbs.? NO. I like to eat and that will never change. But, I can learn to not eat to suppress my emotions. So, what is my goal? To start by losing those first 10 lbs and then the next 10 lbs and then the next 10 lbs. One day at a time. One lifestyle change at a time. I will succeed. But, this is a journey to a healthier life.