Happy President’s Day! I’m only a little ashamed to admit that I have no idea why this is a holiday, especially because I have to work today.

BUT – I packed myself a healthy lunch and I brought my gym bag today. I’m thinking walking on the treadmill today – just something to ease myself back into gym time without hating myself. I also have a 1pm meeting so I can’t get too nasty sweaty.

I finally went to the doctor’s on Friday to see what was up with my never ending cold/headache thing. I have swimmers ear?! I have never had it before! Now that I have my antibiotic drops, it is hurting A LOT more than it was before. I hope that means it is healing. Right now I kind of want to go all Van Gogh and rip my ear off my head. (Sorry for that imagery – it is driving me crazy!)

I have been wearing my work pedometer every day, even on the weekend. I am tracking my steps on Spark, but I’m only syncing it twice a week so I feel like I can’t beat myself up over the fitness counts on a daily basis.

On a completely different note – I read a GREAT article in Marie Clare this month. It is called something like “Fat & Happy or Skinny & Sick?” It is about weight gain and antidepressants. I don’t think they have posted it online yet because I can’t find it – but let me say, it REALLY hit home right now. I decided to go off my meds because (a) I made a lot of lifestyle changes recently and I wanted to see if my depression was related and if I could be meds free again, (b) it killed my sex life, and (c) I was constantly starving and gaining tons of weight. This article analyzes the pro’s and con’s of these meds and how some people have made their choices based on them. I don’t know exactly where I stand yet, but I do know that I can see agreeing with both arguments – that it is better to gain some weight with meds and be depression free, or that you should spend more time focusing on your weight/health and try to deal with depression in other ways. I noticed lately that I felt my worst when getting dressed and nothing fits, and when I looked in the mirror. I am hoping that my lifestyle changes, getting back to the gym, and focusing more on good foods will help.
I had a pretty good weekend, minus my ear burning off the side of my face (dramatic, I know – but it is so annoying!)

I had a girls day on Saturday. We went consignment shopping and I found Tory Burch flats for $35 (I KNOW) and JCrew jeans for $10. Got a mani/pedi and had dinner out. Sometimes that stuff is just good for your soul, sort of who cares how much money I spent?! Right?!

Anyways I am off to a meeting and then TO THE GYM. Ahhh! Happy President’s Day?