Wow, it's been a *long* time since I've been here. I was doing so well up until Labor Day, and that's when I really started to backslide. That's about the time my last session with my trainer happened, and I haven't been able to afford future sessions, but hope to sometime in the future. Things have really started to get busy at one of my jobs, so I wasn't able to go to the gym after work like I used to and like I liked. Yes, I could have gone before, but this chick is NOT a morning person. Yeah, the beginning of a trend of mine is showing- EXCUSES! I've been so adamant about finding ways out of going to the gym. For whatever reason, I don't know, because I LOVE the gym. I feel like I'm in my element there. I found my inner badass.
I've honestly become my own worst enemy. I've let self-doubt get the best of me and thus, I've only been to the gym 3 times since September.....SEPTEMBER!!! I used to go 3-4 times a week, but to have that crappy record is inexcusable. I haven't even used my Wii north of 2-3 times since then. Every time I've gone from warmer weather clothes to cooler weather clothes, I looked at the set I was replacing and told them (and myself) that those clothes would be too big for me the next time it came for me to take them back out with the weather changes. Alas, everything I've ever taken out has fit me the same as the day I put them up. Everytime I go to a concert, some touristy restaurant at the beach, or a Predators game, I'm always getting a size smaller than I wear with the intent that it'll give me motivation enough to be able to eventually wear it. Most hang in my closet now, unworn and as crisp as the day I bought it. Money well wasted, huh?
One of my chief excuses comes on a Monday, when I have a week's worth of laundry to wash, and by the time I got done, I wouldn't have enough time to get a good workout in like I want. Typically, a good workout for me consists of various things for 90 minutes to 2 hours. I know I'm probably overkilling it, but I guess I want to make sure I'm doing enough to burn fat and lose weight. Tomorrow's a new day, and a new chance to get back on track. I haven't been eating terribly, but there's absolutely room for improvement. Working 2 jobs/7 days a week leaves very little room to do a proper grocery shopping, and even more so to go after good ad sales or use coupons. Another challenge? I'm going at it on my own, which has been very much a double-edged sword. It's been my biggest motivation/drive but it's also been my biggest downfall. Having 2 jobs where my coworkers love to eat and have no regard for what they're putting in their bodies has been so hard, because there's always a sweet treat or something not exactly healthy for community consumption. Granted, I know I could partake in the office eats from time to time (everything in moderation, right?), I know that just one bite would cause me to want to eat more.
I've myself to the punch tonight by doing my laundry tonight instead of tomorrow. Now, I have NO excuses for getting to the gym in the morning. Hopefully, in time to get to the Total Toning class I went to 2-3 weeks ago, but we'll see. Let the transformation begin...and hopefully this time, it's for good. I'm going to begin to blog more on here again..I've really missed it, and I can only pray that I can regain the motivation from here and from anyone reading this to finally see myself healthier and leaner.