So it's been a while since I have posted on here. I am now one-year cancer free. Last year was hard... too hard. And I'm ready to move on. And what better way to move on? Trying to have a baby.
My husband and I first tried to have a baby in late 2006. I have PCOS and Grave's disease (thyroid issues!) so things aren't working right. Back then, my doctor had told me to track my BBT temps, and put me on glucophage. Well, I never had a cycle, I never ovulated, and by early 2008 I was distressed and depressed. That was the year I turned 25 - and I my endocrinologist put me back on birth control (kariva) and spironolactone - for the PCOS. Over the next two years, I lost 100 lbs. I was thin and healthy, and when I went off birth control to try again... still no period, still no nothing. And my hormones got so out of whack I started gaining weight like crazy. My new gynocologist suggested clomid, but I wanted to lose back down to my goal weight before I got started. Well, that never happened, and I gained back a lot of weight over 2011. Then 2012 was the year of the cancer... and that puts us here, at 2013. I may not be where I want to be with my weight, but I'm tired of waiting. I'm ready to get serious about this.
My yearly gynecologist visit was Dec 27th. I told him, that I was ready to start the clomid. He was so optimistic, and wanted to schedule me a Hysterosalpingogram (HSG) Test. I just had to call him after I started my next cycle. I went in for my HSG test on Jan 9th, and my one-year cancer scans on Jan 10th.
So, I was told that the HSG test was going to be mildly uncomfortable, some pressure and PMS pain. Basically, they put a catheter up in your uterus and fill you with dye and take an xray to make sure that your tubes are clear. Well, of course I'm so bizarre and nothing goes as planned. The doctor took about 20 minutes trying to get the tube inside, but my body wasn't cooperating. Finally, she calls in another doctor, and after a few miserable tries, and I'm getting more upset, so I'm sure that isn't helping me "open" up, They get the tube and dye in. And OMG it was horrible. It felt like my insides were ripping apart - They were telling me to slide up on the table so they could get an xray, but I was in so much pain, I couldn't move. The goodness was that my tubes were clear. Somehow I survive this test, and my husband, who works at the hospital, met me after the test. Ironically, my friend had her baby that morning, and fighting back tears, I went up to see them before leaving the hospital.
Jan 31st - My cycle starts - and I get to call back the gynecologist for my clomid appointment. I also stop taking my spironolactone - I don't know what's about to happen with my hormones! Stopping birth control and spironolactone and going on clomid? Oh Lord...
Feb 4th - I go in for my schedule! I am taking clomid days 7-11, sex every other day after that for two weeks, then an ultra sound, next week progesterone test, next week pregnancy test.
Feb 6th - starting my clomid!
I haven't had as bad of side effects as I'd feared on the clomid. I have been more emotional (I'm emotional anyway), but the worse thing is the cramps. Not, omG I'm dying cramps, but enough to be a pain. ha. I stayed up late reading a blog about someone else on clomid and what she thought was ovulatory pain turned out to be a cyst. I sure hope I won't have a problem with that. .. I think I may have a cyst on my left ovary. I go in day after tomorrow for my ultrasound. I guess I'll find out then.
I've been tracking my temperature, too. I got so excited a few days ago when I had a dip... only to be followed by another dip, and still no spike to signal ovulation, and I'm on day...18? So I pray for a temperature spike tomorrow.