Sunday, February 17, 2013
Ugh. I hate to admit the fact that I do this. I seriously don't know why...it's like if there's food in the house that I like--I will eat it. Whether I'm hungry or not. It's gotten a lot worse lately.
I think because I've been a bit depressed lately. Just a lot of things going on...stuff that's been hard to deal with for me. Not only that but sometimes I don't get a chance to eat properly while I'm at work which makes me ravenous by the time I get home and I'm stressed and tired a lot more than I have been in a while. And I know that I do turn to food to make me feel better sometimes. It definitely comforts me.
And that's gotta stop. There are a couple of foods that I turn to and I know what they are. The main one is cereal. Peanut butter can be one also.
So I've decided to eliminate these from my pantry. Well, maybe not the peanut butter as I have less of a problem with that one and I seem to use it in other things a lot.
I've already eliminated Nutella from my shelves and bagels. (I know, my cravings are probably not standard--I don't crave chips or pizza or chocolate bars...). Anyway. I know they say that you shouldn't ban yourself from ever eating anything completely but...I think it's just safer if I don't buy that stuff. I know now (from it becoming very clear this weekend) that if that stuff is in the house...i will not be able to tell myself no for very long.
I guess I need to substitute it with something. Either activity or some low calorie food of some sort (any suggestions about that are welcome, fellow SparkPeople). Maybe eventually I won't want that kind of thing anymore. :-/
Feel really bad about eating so terribly this weekend. I feel fat. and pretty awful about myself.
But. The past is the past...it happened and I just have to get back up and start over. So tomorrow--conscious of how binge eating has made me feel today, healthy food choices, MODERATION, and the gym with a friend after work. Time's getting away from me and I've really got to do this for myself. Even if I just lose a few lbs...i think i'll feel a lot better.