It will be time for the monthly weigh in soon, and with 10 lbs to go till my goal, I realize now that it is not going to be a walk in the park to get there. That is partly due to challenges and partly due to the Evil Thin Girl, who is a challenge of her own!
Challenges: Still living with SO, although I am finding that I am getting used to it and am enjoying aspects of it, although it is not an ideal situation. (I have started looking for a new place to live, would like to get out of this building and into a larger, cheaper place maybe this summer) But SO EATS ALL THE TIME! It is HARD to be around someone who is constantly eating, especially at night when I should NOT be! And HE can get away with it! It's been a challenge to cook meals for both of us that are not expensive in which I am not constantly depending on grains to stretch things, because I do not metabolize them well. Sometimes I will make the main dish and give myself more vegetables and no grains, and give him grains and vegetables, if that makes sense. (Again, we are both vegetarians)Another challenge that has nothing to do with him...weekends. I want to eat more because food is more accessible. I realized that I think that it's because I assign myself a lot of chores to do on the weekend and the eating is also an avoidance tactic, or because I am bored with what I have to do. So today, I decided to get up, go to the gym, eat breakfast, and then immediately tackle the worst thing on my to-do list. I also decided to only have snacks at certain times, like I do at work, and not to let myself aimlessly get on the computer. So far so good today!
Some NSVs this week:
Turned down food offered to me by SO a few times when I did not really want it or want to prepare it:
He suggested baked sweet potato fries on Monday: not bad per se, but we had had them on Sunday night and I did not want to have them 2 nights in a row. So we didn't, and when I explained why, he decided not to have them either.
Turned down ice cream twice when I didn't really want it.
Limited myself to 2 chocolate Dove mini-valentine hearts a day that he brought home for me, altho I DID split a little petit-four cake with him that he bought for me, but ate at the low end of my calorie range so I could do that.
Did NOT buy any kind of chips at Trader Joes or Giant, even ones like Pop-Chips on Friday, when I really wanted them but just thought that I need to hold back on that stuff right now.
I HAVE been doing extra exercise to compensate for the fact that I feel like I have been eating more than I really want.
So now, for the Evil Thin Girl. Someone wrote about her, possibly using a different name and I had never really thought about her before that, but I know her! The Evil Thin Girl has shown up every time I was almost at a weight goal and she keeps me from making it all the way to the goal, and she has been visiting me recently! The Evil Thin Girl says "You only have this many pounds left to lose, you can eat XXXXX"(Whatever) Or "You look great, you can get away with having some more XXXXXX" She is definitely a dangerous character, and I do not want to let her sabotage me this time! I have worked too hard for too long to let her get the best of me. Of course, the Evil Thin Girl lives in my head, if you have not already figured that out!
Now onto the reunion. I found out that my 40th HS class reunion in PA is going to be October 5. At my last reunion, I would bet that I weighed in the 240s...I was definitely heavier than my starting weight 2 years ago. Posted below are a couple of photos that one of my classmates recently posted on our Facebook page of when we got together in 2009. When I saw them last week I thought “OMG!”
Now, posted below are 2 current photos. One is me in workout gear, the other is me in the dress I want to wear to the reunion. I ordered it in December, in a size medium, the size that I wear now in that brand, and believe it or not, I was almost relieved when it came and was a little tight in the tummy. I don’t want it to be too big by the reunion, and that’s what has been happening with a lot of my newer clothes! I kind of wanted to see how it looked now from another vantage point. I REALLY would like to be at my goal weight by the reunion, or maybe a little less than that! Do-able? Well, if I can get rid of that Evil Thin Girl, I could have a shot!