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Sunday, February 17, 2013

Hi Spark Friends!

This is a lengthy blog, and may get boring, and I do not hold it against anyone who does not read it through... but it is more for my benefit than for others, although I am always hoping to motivate and inspire, and hope someone else learns something too! emoticon


Back to SP: February 2, 2013

Height: 5' 6.5"

Initial Starting Weight: 443 lb. (April 25, 2011)

New Back-To-Business Starting Weight: 313.6 lb. (February 10, 2013)

Current Weight: 310 lbs. (Lost = 3.6 lbs.)

Total Weight Loss: 133 lb. (February 17, 2013)

Lost 30% of total body weight so far!

Goal Weight: 153 lb.

Lbs. left to lose: 157

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I am not setting a goal date, just going to be happy I am continuing to move forward. toward my goal of 153 lbs.

Weight loss program: Keeping a steady balance of all foods, watching my intake amounts and keeping my fat intake down, carbs to complex, and protein intake up.

Using the MediaFit Band to help keep track of my moving and sleep.

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I am working toward a different type of goal this time. Before I was always so worried about everything I was taught during my weight loss for and from my surgery and I have realized that I learned a lot...


1.) Weight loss surgery was a good choice BUT the eating plan that goes along with it is high in protein, and cuts out important complex carbs and good fruits and veggies. THIS was the problem I had with it. I would get dizzy and light headed, I even had times where I could not even think. My body responded and then it just made me discouraged.

2.) Vitamins and shakes should never replace food! This one was my biggest concern. How can we encourage putting all-not-so-natural into our systems such as high protein shakes, and processed vitamins when we are trying to learn how to eat proper for the rest of our lives. I do not have a problem with either as an ADD TO, but most nutrition should be coming from fresh or raw non-processed foods not replaced.

3.) I appreciate the mechanics of the surgery itself. My stomach is much smaller and I am still seriously limited in what CAN I eat, not to mention that it also reminds me, in a not so comfortable way, when I eat what is way too high in fat or the wrong carbs.

4.) Exercise is ABSOLUTE NECESSITY! One thing I disagreed with about the plan I was taught before surgery was the exercise, movement was encouraged, yes, but it was walk, walk, walk... and that is fine, but when I wanted to add other stuff that helped my body to work certain muscle groups it was discouraged.

Now don't get me wrong, I still am very glad to have had the surgery. It still assists in so many ways, but the one thing I learned the most about all of this is:


WLS is misunderstood as a quick fix, and it's not!
WLS is misunderstood as the easy way out, and it's not!

It IS hard to lose
It IS hard to keep it off
It IS hard to maintain
No matter how you do it!

So, basically, lately my biggest question has been: Why did I lose so much weight before surgery and very little after. I really wanted the answer to this question.

I was told it was due to the stress I was under after surgery... not buying that, I was under stress the whole time! I was then told it was because before surgery I wanted it really bad... maybe, I might buy that a bit, but I cannot say that I did not continue to want it really bad after surgery, heck I want it really bad now!

So then it come to me... Before surgery, well I guess you could say I rebelled.

I ate what I wanted but kept things within the limits of a sensible diet, I did add the shakes to raise my protein intake as well as for the added vitamins that are in them, but I did not go off food completely like I was told to.

I worked out like I chose to, a combo of zumba, tae-bo, and a ton of Jillian. I hardly ever walked, it hurt my back to do so.

But now after surgery, I was scared, one of the things that having surgery does to you is scare you to death that you are going to pop your stomach or cause another surgery to be needed, or any other dozen things possible to be paranoid about. So... in turn, I followed "the plan" intensely!

Yes, I lost the first few months... but geez, I was on a liquid diet to begin with, and then soft foods, only at month three was I able to finally try and put real food back into my diet, and I was put on such restriction I was experiencing some of the things I already wrote about... AND not losing!

I kept questioning it, and was not getting anything except, "the body goes through lulls especially if you have lost so much, hang in there, it will pass" It never did, UNTIL I began doing what I was doing before... then the weight began coming off again.

Now I know there are people who have done this and had awesome results following exactly what they were to do and still are maintaining with no problems, but the point I am getting to is that we are not all cookies cut from the same cutter. Our bodies are different, and we will all lose differently. It's a verifiable fact.

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So I have decided to go back to what works for me, that is to balance everything out, and stay in balance.

I begin today with setting some goals, and working toward them.

Goals for week one:

1.) Log my food and workouts everyday!
2.) Stay within the balance of my plan!
3.) Find a way to get to the gym Mon - Sat NO MATTER WHAT!
4.) Blog daily!
5.) Follow the Spark Coach program everyday!
6.) Find motivation: Read from motivational book for 30 minutes daily... add motivation to my blog daily... spread the spark daily!

These are my goals this week... all attainable, and not overloading myself!

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I CAN do this!
I AM worthy!

Thanks for reading!

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  • MELLY3183
    Keep up the great work! I've watched you over the past year and you have overcome so many struggles, I am simply inspired to try my hardest. The best is yet to come and you will push through with flying colors. Keep doing what your doing and the end result will come soon. Congrats on your weight loss thus far! Can't wait to see what you have in store for us this coming year. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1793 days ago
    Kat this was a great blog thank you so much for posting it. I have considered WLS several times in the past but chickened many risks for me. I am also very stubburn will not admit I cannot lose the weight. I keep trying and I know I will lose this weight. I am just slow and do't always do everything like I am supposed too. Well really most of the time I don't do what I am supposed to. Anyway you inspired me to get off my duff and get to work lossing this weight. I was doing real well then hit plateau and just slowed down and have gained some weight back.

    Glad you are back and I know you will do well. emoticon
    1793 days ago
    This was a great Blog and very inspiring. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1793 days ago
    emoticon emoticon Howdy! from the DFW area of Texas!

    Thank you so much for posting this blog. Although I have had no surgery's..please read my spark page...I can understand where you are coming from. It is a long and tedious process at best sometimes, no matter what avenue we take in our journey to the new us. My nephew is having the bypass surgery tomorrow.

    I want to congratulate you on all of the successes that you have had on your own journey thus far. It has taken me 4 years to get to where I am today and I'm still having to go further, according to my doctors. I have numerous disabilities which prevent me from doing too much as far as exercising, but I am now using a walker, as where before, I was confined to a wheelchair.

    What ever avenue we feel that we must take to "arrive" to where we need to be, is what I feel that we should do. Mine has been portion control all the way with minimal walking.

    You seem very determined to improve yourself and I know that you will work it out and come out the winner on the other side. emoticon

    Have a blessed day and wonderful journey to the new you!

    Paula emoticon
    1793 days ago
    Today you will have success.
    1793 days ago
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