Sunday, February 17, 2013
Will I ever be free of the white devil?
I've truly tried to cut sugar only once before, and I kind of almost got there...sort of. Then, I thought, well a piece of candy here or there couldn't hurt. But it did. I'm back to popping it thoughtlessly into my mouth or craving it after a meal. Ugg.
So...slow or cold turkey. Slow would probably not work. I'd lose sight of the goal, I think. Cold turkey it is.
Bigger question: do I just focus on obvious, straight forward sugar or include all those lovely, white flour wonders that become sugar ever so quickly? I'd love to just say I'm going to cut them all, but I must admit I lack confidence in such a proposal. One thing at at time? Right? Or do I go all in and say, yes, I can do this. I want to do this.
Here's the problem, I don't want to do this. What I really want is to have it all - in moderation of course, but I want to be that healthy eater that can have snacks and occassional treats and know that they are just that - treats. Occassional treats. Not everyday indulgences. I'm already rethinking my "cold turkey" plan because maybe that just sets me up for failure. I do want to do this, but I want to get it right. Right for the long haul. Right for a lifestyle.
Yet, this is where I always run into trouble. My lifestyle hasn't been one of healthy eating and I fall too easily into old habits. When I'm allowing myself that one treat today because we have breakfast meeting at work, I forget about the treat I had yesterday because I had extra calories to spare, or the one I had Wednesday because I came home late and stressed.
So I need to be more aware. How? I've travelled this road. I've journaled. I've logged. Then, I've rationalized, forgotten, and relasped. Now, I want a better way. A way I can sustain. Maybe cut it all, for now, and see if after a good chunk of time I can add back slowly. Find my triggers. Learn to moderate.
Has anyone out there done this well?