Sunday, February 17, 2013
So I finally recovered from the flu and those shooting head pains that lingered for almost a week. I was eating less than 1000 calories everyday for about a week b/c I also had this weird lump in my throat, like when you are holding back tears, but it lasted about 10 days and made eating painful. Anyways, started feeling better a week ago, last sunday, which was also the day we baked treats to send a Valentine's package to my grandma (i started doing this about 5 years ago when my grandpa passed). I ate alot of sweets! Then that night I was invited to a group kind of therapy session for women recovering from abuse. I have never had any therapy or counseling in over 5 years now and it was alot to take in. To admit that my past still affects me today. To be honest about how I allow it to affect my husband and my sons. So I just continued eating sweets last week to dull the pain of this emotional work I have just taken on. I am going back tonight and feel excited but nervous. I recommitted to eating healthy today. Got back on track with my protein shake for breakfast and soup for lunch. I have not had much exercise in 2 weeks so that is on my agenda, though today i am quite sore from dancing at a friend's bday party last night. I also quit smoking this new year's and i figured last week eating sweets was the less of 2 evils. Sometimes life goes on, and you need something to comfort you and I am ok with that. But I am going to redouble my efforts now to treat my body well and find non edible ways to comfort my heart.