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I have been a brat THEN reality hit

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Well, I have really been a brat. I have been complaining about everything in my head, yes, every stupid little thing.

- I wanted to go out to breakfast.
- I wanted the pups to be settled so I could work on my on-line course.
- I wanted to get on the treadmill.
- I wanted quite not the music on.
- I wanted peace and quiet.
- I wanted to know what the plan for the day would be because I was feeling lazy and did not feel like doing my hair.

What an ungrateful pain in the rear I have been in my own head.

THEN... reality hits. Utah has a seizure.

Nothing else really matters in comparison.

It does not matter if I finish my course by such and such time or if I waste time doing this or that. It is Sunday, for goodness sake. Relax and realize it is a day off to get things done yes but not to be overly controlling.

So, yes, he had a seizure and I was right here with him. It has been 1 week 4 days. Not good. I am praying that it is just one. This is the only good thing about them being closer together. We want them to be at least a month apart but at least they don't seem to be coming in clusters.

Last time it was only 1 seizure. I am also lucky that I am off tomorrow so I will be home with him.

Things like this just really put life in perspective. I need to be smart with my time but not be obsessive and controlling. I need to roll with what happens and remain positive.

Thanks for putting up with my whining this weekend and I appreciate the positive thoughts for Utah.

I should add for those of you who don't know...

Utah is only 2yo. He was 2 in January. He has epilepsy. He gets 6 pills twice daily for it. He has not gotten a brain scan done but they say, he is way too young to have a brain tumor. All signs point to epilepsy.

There were times when he would have 3 to 5 seizures within a 24 hour period. These are called clusters and are NOT good at all. The challenge is to break the cycle when that starts. The other concern is if they last a long time. Utah's have always been fairly brief, less than a minute. They are terrible to see him go through though. The last concern is to have then often, meaning more than once a month.

For some reason he is having them more often now but no longer in clusters. We adjusted his meds last time again. I will have to call the doc and see if we need to adjust again.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SKIPPYDOG 2/18/2013 8:11AM

    So sorry to hear that your pup had a seizure, no fun at all. My little buddy skip is going blind, and he is adjusting well.. its amazing how dogs can adjust. You are not a 'Brat" and you need to take care of yourself and your buddy Utah. emoticon

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HDHAWK 2/17/2013 9:40PM

    That really does put things into perspective. I hope the meds can be adjusted so the seizures end. emoticon

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BLITZEN40 2/17/2013 8:19PM

    Sorry about Utah. Hang in there! emoticon

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BOILHAM 2/17/2013 4:35PM

    Sorry to hear that. One of our Bostons had seizures, but that was when he had grown old and was not a lifetime series of events. It is hard to see your beloved friend go through that. Good luck.

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SEEINGCLEARLY53 2/17/2013 4:31PM

    So sorry,,,,,sending good wishes to you!

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THINRONNA 2/17/2013 3:47PM

    Sweet friend, you are not a brat. Hugs to you ...I am so sorry to know that Utah had another seizure but so glad you were there! I will get in touch again as soon as I can after I move...hopefully the internet is on in the new place.

Hang in there!

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BLESSED2BEME 2/17/2013 3:34PM

    I agree with Keko - I bet his unsettled behavior this morning has to do with the seizure.

So glad you were home and so glad you are home tomorrow.

Yes, this puts life back into perspective doesn't it? Give him a hug from me and be kind to yourself. It isn't easy to deal with his illness but you give it top priority and that is so important.

emoticon and prayers!


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KEKEIKO 2/17/2013 2:53PM

    Well that explains his behavior and I bet down deep you had a feeling that a seizure was about to happen. Moms have that sixth sense ya know otherwise known as intuition. Hope your boy is doing better.

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