Advertisement -- Learn more about ads on this site.


    JOANNA202   32,194
SparkPoints
30,000-39,999 SparkPoints
 
 
2 years on, and the training wheels are well and truly off now

Sunday, February 17, 2013

I'm pleased to say my 2 year sparkversary was well and truly overshadowed by valentine's day this year. Well that, and having just moved house and still living in semi-chaos!

I still don't have internet at home so Mr Caffe Nero is obliging until my computer dies in a few minutes. But to be honest, there isn't that much to reflect on the last year because I've just kept on keeping. When I look back it is a little depressing how little actual progress I've made in the last year, but I'm taking the real progress as a year of consistency. No major ups or downs, no serious collapses off the wagon and ever so little by ever so little I am getting to the physique I finally want (aka no belly!)

But the real test of my consistency and everything I've learnt really started two weeks ago when I moved in with P. It's hit me in two ways. First, if I wanted to count calories properly I would have to refuse to eat with him. I certainly don't want that (especially when dinner is often ready when I get home!!) so I'm concentrating on controlling portions, making sure he has the man-size portion and I have a sensible size, balancing out any treats with salads at lunchtime at work and generally trying not to panic that I can't control everything. And it's largely working (apart from the not panicking part!) I feel like the training wheels have come off, and now I'm testing my solo wings (oops, mixed analogies!) and so far, so good. Once I have the internet back at home I hope to check back in a bit more to make sure this situation continues.

The second way this is testing me is emotionally. I don't want to go into lots of detail but this is the first time I've lived with someone (it's not the first time for him). It was most certainly the right thing to do but not having absolute control over everything in my home is a scary prospect for a control freak like me. I'm writing about this here because it feels very relevant to my health. I used to control my food (first by having too much and then by meticulously counting calories) as a way to feel in control of my life. I'm very aware of being someone who needs control and luckily P is incredibly understanding of all my strange ways I've foisted on him. It's just going to take time, and I need to be sure in the meantime that I don't start eating more rubbish in a 'this is one thing I actually can control' way.

That might not make any sense to anyone else, but I hope it does! These are exciting times and I know I can figure this out and then everything will be fabulous :-)

Thanks for listening sparkfriends!
SHARE
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SUNSHINE20113 2/24/2013 4:24PM

    Congrats on the two year anniversary! It is an adjustment to getting used to sharing space, but gradually you get used to it. I did it the old fashioned way and only moved in with my husband when we got married - what a shock!! I did it all wrong - gained weight and didn't really know how to balance 'me time' with 'us time'.
We figured it out, though. Although it was a bit messy in the beginning, now it's really lovely. We've even ended up losing weight together - his support has been quite instrumental in getting me into these size 8s!!
Fortunately you've got all the sparkpeople tools already, which will be a massive help. It's definitely a big step, but it's worth it!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
RAINBOWCHOC 2/20/2013 10:29AM

    They say "love conquers all!" so give it a chance to defeat some of the demons. Knowing someone wants you to be part of their life is special, even when you are irritating each other with minor habits that don't cause pain or poisoning.
I'm sure it will be fine and you'll look back in another year and wonder what you worried about.
Good luck!

Report Inappropriate Comment
LITTLETEALOVER 2/18/2013 8:21AM

    I'd say a year of consistency is definitely worth celebrating, and it sounds like you're doing a fabulous job of "living" rather than "dieting." Isn't that what we are all striving for, in the end?

Congrats on moving in! My hubby and I went to college together, so when we moved in together it wasn't really much of a change. We had already been practically living together. But, I understand it can be a huge adjustment. It's amazing the things you learn about a person when you share the same space...

Report Inappropriate Comment
BOOKWORM27S 2/17/2013 10:09AM

    Congrats on your Spark anniversary!

Report Inappropriate Comment

Add Your Comment to the Blog Post


Log in to post a comment.