as a kid, i always had to check under my bed for monsters. sometimes in my closet, too, just like in the movie, "Monsters Inc." now i must say, Sully is probably my favorite monster!
but i digress...my "adult" monsters lurk in my bathroom, and i obsess about them all of the time.
MONSTER #1: "The Mirror". oh the horror i get when i look at it! i see me the way i don't want to be. yes, i do visualization (which by the way, works really well), but when i look in the mirror, i see the 40 pounds over weight, sagging body, older woman. kinda a shock, after visualizing myself as a svelte, strong and sexy woman.
i try to see past the the fat body, grey hair and wrinkles, try to focus on what i "WILL" be, but that "monster" rears it ugly head, more often than i would like.
MONSTER #2: "The scale" (insert creepy music, dum, dum DUM!) now, this monster only comes around when i am trying to lose weight and get healthy. when i am happily chugging down sodas, eating big macs, fries, and a slue of desserts, it looks like a loney puppy in the corner who isn't loved.
but BAM! the minute i am taking action to eat better and exercise, it turns into a HUGE rabid dog, wants to take me down. the thing is, this monster follows me every where, it is like a have a chain locked around my ankle, that goes with me everywhere.
lately, it has been worse than usual. i am freaking out for tuesday... see, i have decided that weighing myself wasn't helping me stay on track, it was making me manic/depressant. "YEA, i lost a pound!" or, "what the heck? i GAINED a pound?" so, i am only weighing my self once a week (this is the first week), but i am obsessed with what it will say... will i be down 2-3 pounds? is it right since weight fluctuates daily?
i know, i know, what you are thinking. don't think about the weight as a measurement, see how your clothes fit, see how your work-outs seem easier, where you aren't huffing and puffing as you did two weeks ago. but, being 45 years old, it is hard to ditch the old way of thinking, that the scale was a end all, be all. just like how it was hard to understand how "big hair" was out with the 80's! (lol!) by the way, i don't have big hair anymore, that took a while. but 80's music, well, that will always be the best!
ANYway, i was wondering if anyone has been able to "rid" themselves of these "monsters". and if so, how did you do it? how long did it take? did they ever reside in your bathroom?
do they ever come back?
for now, i am trying not to obsess, and hey look, Sully from the movie, Monsters Inc., ended up being the good guy! and he's my fav! can "the mirror" or "the scale" and i become friends?
well, i gotta run, i hear the monsters calling to me, time to work out and eat right!