Sunday, February 17, 2013
(Most of this I posted on a forum. So that's why the blog sounds like I'm going through different emotions/feelings throughout the post)
I might be getting to that point where I stop caring as much. I don't think in 2011 or 2012 I ever made it past 5% lost. I've just feel like I've been having an awful week on trying to stay on plan. And when I screw up, I try my best to pick it up again the next day but I continue to eat past my points. I don't feel like vegs or anything good for me. I just want to enjoy a pop and maybe a bit of cheesecake a co-worker brought in. I just want Tuesday to roll around so that I can start over again and super fresh. My weight loss buddy says "exercise more to compensate." I work three 12 hour shifts in a row. Ain't happening unless I sleep less. Is it a crime to have a bad week? As long as I'm trying to have good meals/snacks 60% of the time?
On Tuesday, I do plan to get back on plan with exercise and eating. Maybe I should also limit over doing it with my weekly points. I like having that bumper throughout the week and I hate knowing I don't have any till Tuesday! I don't have any noticible results other than a few inches or pounds. I think I have to lose 35 lbs for anything to be changed clothing and body wise.
I do start every day as a new day. I even start every meal as a new time to make smarter choices. If i indulge during work, i'll try to do better when i go to my next meal. But Tuesday is also the same day that i cam really start devoting more exercise /sleep along with the start of my new week.
Weight watchers has worked best for me in the past.
Far better than calorie counting or simple diet. I can't afford more expensive programs. I've went overboard slowly each day. I maxed out my weeklies yesterday and i don't have the time (unless i forgo sleep) to earn activity points.(sounds like excuses but i already workout on my lunch break)
I already track using WW app (But i sometimes feel like tracking on loseit soon...eventually). I actually don't deprive myself of anything to be honest. I've had a slice of pizza (or two), chinese food, cupcakes, meatballs, sliver of pie and other things throughout the last two months with no worry. Those just have been better weeks because I've planned for it/chose smaller portions (or what seemed like a portion). It all started earlier this week when I was craving chocolate. I had both portions over the course of two days (I got super dark that was hard to eat in one sitting). Either way, I think that got my brain thinking, "hey, we're going back to eating junk again. Huzzah let's crave MORE junk again." I think I've over indulged a little every day. Also, my tom might be near. I'm not sure. I'm still waiting (the lower fat has screwed my cycle up a lot and I'm not sure when the next day is supposed to be). Most weeks I'm okay. This is the rest of my life. 75% of healthy foods and some treats and everything in moderation. I'm trying to think more like a healthier, thin person. After all this stress about my paycheck is over, I can breath a sigh of relief (short month = short check unless I do ot).
I also try to limit pop to very occasional treats because it was giving me severe headaches for months until January when I wiped them out/limited my coffee. I know my pop craving this evening was emotional cause work was horrible. I was doing all the work and it was stressing me out. Plus my body was hurting. I did just have a plate of the food everyone brought (plus some ice cream) but I'm limiting myself to one plate. I'm full anyways! Everything else I brought is healthy (plenty of broccolli and fish and fruit and popcorn).