Feeling stressed out...and unmotivated
Sunday, February 17, 2013
This has been the week from hell. Everything that can go wrong has gone wrong and I find myself questioning every decision I have made over the last few months.
For starters I have had a very sick child on my hands this past week. That alone is enough to drive a mommy crazy. I missed two vital class days in my Spanish class and one of them happened to be the first exam in that class. This was all due to a flat tire incident in the middle of the week that cost me nearly $300 that I didn't have to spend. Now after talking to my husband I found out that we may not have enough money to pay our rent and our bills b/c the income tax return(which is usually my play money) is so small this year that it won't cover everything. Neither one of us work b/c we are both trying to focus on finishing our degrees. I know one of us needs to work but not both of us b/c then we would be spending more money on child care then would be worth it. I am questioning my decision not to work now even though with my full load this semester I barely have time to get all my schoolwork finished.
I changed my major at the end of last semester b/c I knew for a fact that I couldn't pass 2 math classes that were required plus I didn't know if I could pass the test in order to get into the teacher education program. Now I find myself questioning that decision b/c I want to find a decent paying job when I graduate but with a degree in English I don't know if that is feasible. I'm considering changing to Human Resources but then I will spend another 2 1/2 to 3 years in school and by that time I will be in my early 30s with no solid job experience that would be applicable in that field.Darn my bad decisions in my early 20s! Now it's biting me in the butt big time. I went shopping with a friend of mind today thinking that would help and it did...temporarily. I left feeling more depressed than when we started b/c I couldn't afford to buy some of the things that I really wanted. Money can't buy happiness I know but it sure would help. Maybe this dream of having a college degree, a nice home and family is just a pipe dream. I have my medical assistant education but without any experience outside of my internship I have a hard time finding a job in that field either. Oh I am so confused and irritated. This in turn makes me feel stressed out and unmotivated and wanting to give up and just accept mediocrity.
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I'm here to offer some encouragement for being an English major and establishing a writing career as opposed to a teaching career. My major was in English/Writing and I've been working in the "writing" field for 19 years (oh my gosh!).
I started at an advertising agency doing PR, then I wrote proposals for a company in DC, and now I'm a marketing communications person in a privately owned company where I do everything related to promoting our products and services - PR, advertising, website, brochures, product catalogs, etc. I just wanted to give you a feel for what you can do with an English major. While salaries are not super high, I've been able to support myself and buy a condo (not at first, mind you). Here's some info on salaries in the PR field:
The largest number of survey respondents—26 percent—earn in the $50,000 to $75,000 range, followed by another quarter who earn from $35,000 to $50,000. Fewer than 1 percent earn more than $250,000 a year.
I'm not sure if you can see the entire article, but here's a link: http://www.ragan.com/Main/Articles/
Ragan.com is a good source for all things PR, social media, marketing communications, etc. They also have a jobs lists, but you might have to be a member in order to access that part of the site. If you want to talk about this further offline, just send me a Spark mail.
1254 days ago
Think about what you really, REALLY want to spend the next 30 years or so doing for a living, day in, day out. Every. Single. Day. Then go for it.
Don't assume you won't pass a test! How do you know?? From your post I see you have talked yourself out of one major because you are SURE you won't pass 2 classes you haven't taken, AND are not sure you will pass a test to get into a teacher certification program. No one needs to try to defeat you because it seems like you've already done it yourself. Don't do that!
You have got to start talking to yourself the way you would talk to a child of yours who was struggling. Would you counsel your own child to give up because they may not pass a test or some classes? I doubt it. Take the classes, study really hard, get extra help if you need it. Take the test for the teacher program. See what kind of preparation materials they offer and use them to prepare. If you fail, take it again.
When my DD was born my DH quit his full time job to go back to school full time to get his college degree. I was already a teacher, we had a house, 2 cars, etc. We sold 1 car, he got a job working in a restaurant evenings and weekends, and we scraped by for a few years. DD is 10 now and we have 2 cars, a new house, and enough $ to do what we need and some things we want. I'm sure glad he and I didn't talk ourselves out of any of the choices we made!
What do YOU want to be doing 10 years from now? Work towards it and do not give up on it because it might be hard! Most things worth having are.
1255 days ago
Comment edited on: 2/17/2013 11:04:28 AM
How can YOU possibly settle for mediocrity when you yourself are divine! You know how to cut to the chase & see your options for what they are, just that options. You & your special guy are remarkable with all you two are juggling & you still are going for your degrees Bravo!! This life is not a rehearsal girl keep reaching for the Moon, even if you miss you'll be among the Stars... where you belong. Blessings. Please let me know how things are going . Even if I can't be in the audience foe graduation, I'll be cheering you on step by step in cyberspark! Smooches. You are not Alone!
1255 days ago
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