Wonder why I do that?
Sunday, February 17, 2013
I've noticed that sometimes when I fix my plate, I still put enough food on the plate for that 50+ lbs person I use to be! Wonder why I do that?
Then, I sit there and try to stuff my face, practically forcing the food down when I know darn well I am full. It doesn't take much for me to get full now that I have been working out and eating smaller portions. But every now and then, I catch myself with that heaping plate full and I either can't eat it or I try to force it down. Wonder why I do that?
I actually had to wrap my plate and put it in the frig for lunch the next day! Had way too much food on the plate!! Wonder why I do that? Being greedy, you say? I don't think so. Probably out of habit.
Have I accepted the new 50 lbs less me? I hear that sometimes for your mind has to catch up with your body's weight loss.
It is so easy to slip back into old habits. God forbid if any stressful or heartbreaking situation arises. I really have difficulty fighting the binges. This can be such a struggle!
But I'm glad I can turn to SP and read some of the blogs and articles in the middle of the night, like tonight! I'll try listening to Spark Radio when I lay down. Maybe that will help keep me focused and positive. Trying to stay positive this year!!
Well, enough rambling for tonight! Hope this made since to somebody!
Good night, Sparkfriend!!