I am oddly excited about today’s Three Things.
I imagine you’re looking at the picture and wondering what in the world I’m talking about. Did I have more than one glass of wine as I wrote this?
Not true! -- Though I broke down and bought a $16 bottle of wine instead of a $16 box of one.
I just knew I’d find a relationship between too much stuff and too much me if I picked at it long enough.
Work with me here… today’s toss is more conceptual than usual.
It’s not about what’s here…
It’s about what’s not here.
Individually, each item merits no detailed commentary. What’s important is what they represent.
The idea that one can…
BUY A CONTAINER/JAR/TUBE/BOTTLE OF SOMETHING, ENJOY IT, AND USE IT IN ITS ENTIRETY WITHOUT RUSHING OUT TO BUY ANOTHER BEFORE SAID CONTAINER IS GONE
USE UP A FINITE AMOUNT OF SOMETHING AND NOT HAVE TO CONTINUALLY SEEK OUT MORE OR VARIATIONS OF THE SAME SOMETHING BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT SATISFIED WITH CURRENT FINITE CONTAINER.
Okay, maybe you had to be there.
But this epiphany was a long time coming for me.
If this isn’t making an impression in you it’s because I’m explaining it badly.
1. Eye shadow container. I bought the shadow a year ago. I use it every day. It’s flattering to eyes of a certain age, doesn’t crease, and works well with other shadows to go from day to night.
Do you know how many shadows I tossed even before this project started? I lost count. I know I still have a dozen at least, plus a few collections. But I swore when I started “Three Things” that I would not buy another until I used up what I have. And I have not, even as I know that using the shade “Acid Green,” is going to be tough.
I once owned 105 lipsticks, not counting liner or gloss. If you own 105 lipsticks maybe finding the perfect shade is not your problem.
2. Shampoo. Used it all. Only two more bottles to go! They’re not going to stop making shampoo! I can actually go one day in between if I run out! Imagine! Oh my god, will the world come to an end if I run out of shampoo and have to go out with dirty hair?
3. Body lotion. It smells like mangos and papayas. Instead of rubbing ersatz fruit smells on my body, I should be seeking out ways to eat more of the real thing. I never take the time to eat enough fruit. I never take the time to moisturize either – especially if you’re judging by the amount of body lotion I have in reserve.
Where am I going with this?
How many books do you own that you’ve never read? I don’t want to talk about it.
How many CDs or downloads have you made that you’ve never listened to?
(la la la la la la la la la la… I’m not listening to you)
And then we come to food.
I have 7 – SEVEN! – kinds of cheese in my fridge. NO ONE needs that. Cheese is a TREAT. I guarantee I that at least two cheeses will go moldy before I have the opportunity to um, justify eating them.
God forbid I run out of bacon, turkey, reduced fat, or otherwise.
I have more space dedicated to snack foods than to glassware and dishes combined.
I have 14 packages of frozen vegetables. Granted, they are vegetables, but I do not live in the middle of nowhere. I work in a damned supermarket.
There are two gallons of ice cream in my freezer I have never opened.
I have vinegars so old that if you shoot electricity through them you’d create life.
I throw away a horrifying amount of food. I buy it – like I buy things – to fill a void. Maybe not “hoarder-level”, but it’s a problem all the same. And who am I to judge? I assign all this mental energy to seeking out, storing, maneuvering around, sentimentalizing, coveting, acquiring STUFF - no one knows how they'd really respond to a life tragedy, especially given a predisposition to... never mind.
And I knew this. Sort of.
But about food?
Since staring this project – giving voice and reason to the VOID - my food bill is half what it was.
I take the time.
And I have space in my refrigerator.
I figure out what I’m feeling.
And I don’t buy boxes and boxes of shelf-stable Indian food. I don't even like Indian food.
I will figure out what my body, head and heart need…
but buy no more until it’s time.
There will always be more.
Trust in the future.
Live in the present.
“You can never get enough of what you don’t need to make you happy.” ~ Eric Hoffer.