Saturday, February 16, 2013
Guys...oh man. This entire week was awful, and it culminated in my worst day yet.
SO MANY CARBS. SO MUCH FOOD. AND I'M NOT EVEN HUNGRY.
This upcoming week is going to be hugely stressful, and as if in preparation...I ate my little heart out. Good gracious, just thinking about it all makes me sick.
In addition, it was also that lovely time of the month for females - who knows how that affected me?
Regardless, I know I did some major damage to myself this week. Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well.
I'm sure I gained weight, but I will own up to my poor choices and check the scale tomorrow morning. It will be Sunday, and a perfect day to refocus and start a cleansing program. It involves a smoothie of soy milk + fruit in the morning, leafy greens + lean protein for lunch and dinner, and green tea, cucumbers (or other healthy raw veggies), and water inbetween meals. Quite frankly, that sounds delicious in comparison to the terrible things I've been giving my body.
I'm also emotionally strained - I feel so weak, and I can't believe I just decided to undo all the hard work of the past month in a few short days. Why? For two days in a row, I've woken up crying, which I think indicates some underlying issues. I'm going to the counselor on Wednesday, but until then...
Whew. It's okay. I know it's okay, but I'm just bummed out. I need to keep looking forward. The weight will come off again, but obviously only when I keep my mental/emotional health in check as well.
I'm sorry for the rambling and the same old slip-ups!