Saturday, February 16, 2013
I just watched a documentary on Netflix called Hungry for Change. It is one of the best things someone could watch when wanting to learn about how to eat and what to eat. I had several "aha" moments and plenty of moments that I stopped and thought oh wow that makes so much sense.
It of course explains food and how certain things are amazingly nutritious and benefit your health tremendously. It also goes deeper into the why we eat what we eat and how the chemicals the food companies purposely put in the food we eat trigger certain responses in our brains to think that they are good for us or its ok to eat them.
It also takes a look into why and how we started down the path of eating bad and gaining weight. This is the part where I had my biggest "omg that's me" moment. I never realized how much I was almost addicted to food cause it was the one aspect of my life that I could control and I could make myself "happy" by eating certain things. I was made to feel for a large portion of my life that I was a failure and always would be, that I was not good enough and would never amount to anything (mostly by the people who should NEVER make you feel that way). Then I realized that when I FINALLY hit a point in my life where I was TRULY happy I started caring about myself and started wanting to get healthy. I have been unhappy with my appearance for YEARS and always wanted to be skinnier but I never remember thinking I want to be healthy and of course those 2 things go hand in hand.
I literally cried when it hit me that this is a big reason why I have let myself become what I was made to believe I was. We as a whole need to step back and take a look at ourselves and know that we are worth it. It is so easy to tell other people that they are beautiful people and worthwhile but it is so hard to look in the mirror and say it to ourselves much less believe it! Now that I have hit the point in my life where I love myself TRULY love myself I want to be healthy and that's exactly what I have been doing since last spring. I have been working to make myself a healthy person so I can reflect onto the world the fact that I personally believe I am worth something. Overweight people tend to look in the mirror and tell themselves they are worthless and will never be anything but fat. It is so EASY to be that person it really is cause then you don't have to take responsibility for anything you do. It is easy to throw in the towel and tell yourself its inevitable.
I challenge everyone who is struggling to write a sticky to themselves and put it up on the bathroom mirror. Write "I am worth it and in this moment I love myself". For a while you will probably hear all the little voices in your head telling you all the bad things about yourself/ "look how fat you are", "you are old or wrinkled", "you can't do this". Everyday for 30 days stand in the mirror and repeat out loud what the sticky note says and you will start to feel different and see yourself differently and it will quiet all those negative thoughts in the back of your mind.
This documentary touches on all the sides of dieting mental. physical and emotional. It touches on the fact that we don't even care if we eat something healthy or go hours without eating UNTIL we tell ourselves that we are on a diet and as soon as that happens all the "I can't eat that" thoughts come into play and it makes us crave all those food even MORE for the very simple reason of "I shouldn't". So I wanna end this blog with a quote from the Documentary.
We need to stop the "I can't have it" thoughts and replace them with "I CAN have them, I just don't want them".
I hope if you are able to watch Hungry for Change it will make a difference for you like it has for me. Although I can't technically diet right now cause of the pregnancy it has certainly affected how I see things and I am so much more motivated to lose the weight after I have the baby. I can't wait to see how I look this time next year cause I know that I will not only look better but I will be so much healthier for #1 myself and #2 All the one's I love and want to be around for, for a very long time.