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I am not as strong as you think

Saturday, February 16, 2013

You think I am strong think again. I am not. I have been crying in fits and spurts since Thur. morn's news. It took me for a loop. What was found on my lung I don't know! I only know Hallaweh is concerned and he ordered ct scan of the chest. They found something unsure what it is and to be honest this has me running scared. I am so scared that I burst into tears. Listening to Christian music only makes things worse. I am really taking it hard right now.
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PLATINUM755 2/17/2013 5:04PM

    @SUSANBEAMON hit is on the head...crying/tears isn't a sign that you aren't strong...Sending prayers your way! emoticon

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RAINSTORM17 2/17/2013 1:13PM

    You are in my prayers

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ISAVEDME80 2/17/2013 10:51AM

    you are in my prayers, anytime you need sometime to really talk to, let me know and i will email you my number, you could call/text me anytime you needed

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PYNETREE 2/17/2013 10:34AM

    Sending prayers for Strength and Healing.

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OCEAN_MIST 2/17/2013 7:47AM

    If you don't mind me asking, what's your full name? I would like to include it in my church's prayer circle. You can email it to me here if you want. I would be scared too and crying and not comforted by Christian music either. I extend my support and love to you and please keep us posted. Love, Chelsea emoticon

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AMR6665 2/17/2013 5:44AM

    Praying for you right now....tears do not equal weakness, they equal the strength to show that you are hurting and scared...let them out, don't stuff it down...only makes it worse... hang in there!


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SUSANBEAMON 2/17/2013 1:05AM

  just because you are crying doesn't mean you aren't strong. it's just fear leaving your body.

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SLIMMERJESSE 2/17/2013 12:31AM

    Yikes. Wishing you the best.

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PATTYCAKE17 2/16/2013 11:10PM

    You certainly have gotten some scary news, but since there's no definitive diagnosis, it could also be an error, or nothing so bad as you are imagining. Crying isn't a bad thing , it';s a release that allows you to let go of emotions. Once you settle down, you can gather your resources for prayer and more positive thinking. Call on your friends for support and activities to keep you busy and out of your negative thinking. Your reaction is perfectly natural so don't beat yourself up. I'd burst into tears if someone gave me that news and then didn't follow up with any help or support! Always remember that if God takes you to it. HE WILL TAKE YOU THROUGH IT. AND PSALM 91 IS ALWAYS A COMFORT. GOD BLESS YOU MY DEAR SPARK FRIEND. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SCHNOOTIE 2/16/2013 10:21PM

    Psalm 91
He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High, will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord "He is my shelter and my fortress, my God in whom I trust"
Surely He will save you from the fowler's snare and from the deadly pestilence. He will cover you with His feathers and under His wings you will find refuge.
His faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
You will not fear the terror of night, nor the arrow that flies by day, nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness, nor the plague that destroys at midday.
A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you. You will only observe with your eyes and see the punishment of the wicked.
If you make the Most HIgh your dwelling, even the Lord, who is my refuge, then no harm will befall you, no disaster will come near your tent.
For He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways. They will lift you up in their hands so that you will not strike your foot against a stone. You will tread upon the lion and the cobra, you will trample the great lion and the serpent.

Because he loves me, says the Lord, I will rescue him. I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name. He will call upon me, and I wil answer him. I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him, with long life will I satisfy him and show him my salvation.

Sending you lots of love and hugs, and prayers. Hang in there. You are not alone. No matter what the results are, we are here for you!!!!
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SKEEWEE2MEK 2/16/2013 10:04PM

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ANYVAR54 2/16/2013 9:37PM

    So sorry you are having a hard day. I will pray for you. Come share on the threads at Christian Women with Depression and get the prayer support of others there. Ravyna (ANYVAR54)

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