Saturday, February 16, 2013
My first planned title for this blog was "I Need New Goals." Then I realized that what is getting in my way is a perpetual feeling of being in limbo. I finished my degree. I finished my credential. I am trying to find a job ...a short term, subbing, for this semester only kind of thing in my area AND a long term or working-toward-long-term job in the area we're moving to. We will be spending this summer doing a slow/gradual move 150 miles away. Thing is, it's just me and the little one moving, sort of. If hubby retires now, he keeps his Cobra benefits but if he waits three years, then he gets to keep his full medical benefits. Soooo, for now, he will be stuck commuting for his 4 days of 10 hour shifts down here and living up there, sort of. So we're going to combine two homes worth of stuff...while trying to find jobs...while trying to get through to my teenage daughter that this house is not just going to magically become hers and she needs to get her life moving forward...
I feel like I'm supposed to be starting my new life after years of school and feeling like I was working towards this...and yet.... Hurry Up and Wait?
I have know idea how to make goals when I feel like everything's in flux.