Saturday, February 16, 2013
So, in my last post I told you about my unforeseen financial struggle that left me with literally only ramen noodles and mixed vegetables to eat for all of last week. On top of all that my husband and I had a HUGE fight that lasted the ENTIRE week (NOT about the $ issues), and we were just able to meet on common ground last night. I was a complete wreck last week. I hadn't felt so lost and so alone in my entire life.
In the past if I had a crappy week, as soon as it would start to look up I would "celebrate" by going out to get a large pizza or a 8oz steak with loaded mashed potatoes and half a basket of rolls with cinnamon butter and then some crazy dessert. Today however, I went to target (I love target) and we stocked up on chicken and fish and veggies and all the good things I have discovered that I love. We did get one splurge item though...I got the Market Pantry mini red velvet cupcakes. They are DELICIOUS, and a serving size is 3 cakes and I can easily eat only one and be satisfied. I'm not looking at the cupcakes as a "reward" but more of a "curb the craving" thing without eating a billion calories in the process.
Hubbs and I had a good long talk last night then went for a walk together to get out of the house and break the tension, but also to clear our heads. We are finally back on the same page *knock on wood* and have plans to both go bowling later (not exactly a workout, but way better than sitting home and playing on the computer) and take another walk this evening. We went just shy of 2 miles yesterday and didn't even realize. We both thought we had only gone a couple blocks.
Anyway, enough of my random "brain dump", the main point of this entry was to say that I am both excited, relieved, and re-energized knowing that this time around really isn't like the last million tries. I'm not letting circumstance defeat me, I'm not giving up on myself, and I'm strong enough to deal with whatever comes my way. I might stumble a bit, but I no longer hide in shame, I dust myself off and hop right back on!
Here's to a positive and good week y'all! Cheers!