Saturday, February 16, 2013
HAhahahahahaha Doctor told me to reduce stress. Let's see:
My Aunt and Uncle live with my mother. Because Mom has Alzheimer's. Me and my youngest sis go to visit on certain days but it is 3 times a week for each of us. Middle sis doesn't have time to see her but once a month.
I have a 24 year old son with Asperger's. He can't find a job or will never drive. Yes, he still lives with us. He has a worker for 2 days. I get off early on Thursdays. My MIL comes and gets him on Fridays.
I have an almost 21 year old daughter with type 1 diabetes and a leach of a boyfriend. Most of the time health wise she is does well but there are times we have to take her to the hospital. First, because we want to be there and second Boyfriend doesn't drive (he is 22).
I am married (first and only time) soon to be 27 years. But when I told him what was happening with my BP and what the doctor said he said well you know what to do so do it. I love him but he has never had the way with words. If I tell or ask him to do something he will do it. but that is it. He isn't a hugging or romantic type. He used to be when we were dating. But he has changed.
As for family support. My sisters think I am the worst thing next to Hitler. I was there for Mom when Dad died (13 years ago in May) and they disappeared. But I was the bad one. We haven't been close since. So they don't have a clue what is going on with me or me with them. I have tried to work things out until right before last Easter. When my youngest sis said some awful things. I had a breakdown and started counseling and now my new motto is, " Not everything is my problem." It is harder that you think because I have taken care of everything for all family gatherings but I think it has been good for me.
I will be 46 in July. I am obese. I have had both knees replaced. Right one because of a car accident and left because of a fall. The only real support is my Spark friends here. I go to a great church but I am not that close to anyone. Most can't handle the drama of caring for Mom, Son and Daughter. That isn't counting my health. My MIL and SIL don't like me they think Hubby could do better. My FIL and step-MIL are great. All our parents at will be 70 this year and none of them are doing well health wise.
Then I decided to start back to college in January. I am going to do my best to finish if for nothing else but for me! I have started back this morning on logging my food. I will keep the exercise on low key this weekend but on Monday I am going to get back to it. Just trying to get the Blood pressure under control. Maybe I just need to move to my own little island. LOL.
Doc asked me if I realized I was obese? I said yes. She asked me when my Dad has his first heart attack I said 45. She said and you will be, I said 47. She asked at what age did he die I said 62. Her next question was do you want to follow in his foot steps. OUCH.