Saturday, February 16, 2013
"Hello darkness my old friend..."
I'm huge. I have let my eating go out of control. I'm feeling like I will never be able to truly change. I'm terrified to step on the scale, I just don't want to know. I don't feel motivated by pictures of fit people, it just makes me think I'll never look that way. I keep saying "I'm going to go to the gym" but I don't because I don't know what I should do when I get there. I'm having some lower back pain, and I suspect its because I gained weight so quickly. I feel like trying to do exercises is going to be very painful.
I just feel ashamed. I just want to hide myself.