Saturday, February 16, 2013
I woke up feeling good this morning. I don't feel bloated or puffy and I wasn't down on myself for anything. It's the first time I've felt this way in a week or so and I'm holding onto this feeling... with trepidation.
First, why I think I'm feeling so good this AM: My district was off yesterday and I chose not to do anything work related (with the exception of email checking), which was extremely relaxing. I took that opportunity to push myself to a 45 minute workout that I sweated through entirely (that's the first time I've had legit sweat) and wasn't even sore afterwards. Then I scoured the Farmer's Market for new meal ideas and even made a lunch I thought worthy of a picture (I didn't take one).
** Interruption here... that lunch was 3.5 oz of tilapia pan fried in lemon juice, a cup of spinach sautéed in chicken broth, and a cup of yams lightly seasoned with garlic and pepper all for a whopping total of 288 calories and 25g of protein. **
Moving on, my day continued to be low pressure, low stress, and a delightful series of healthy, and consequently, happy choices. Part of that is because I know I have off Monday and I don't plan on stressing out about my other functions this weekend and the other part is because I felt I deserved it. I haven't felt that way in a while, so I'm proud of this emotion.
So as a result of all this I caught myself debating the C25K challenge, which is silly to "debate". But at the risk of sounding a little crazy, I typically avoid anything that is an opportunity to crash and burn - and running is one of those opportunities. I'm also pretty sure I tried C25K before and didn't make it past week one. The strange part is that I have completed 5Ks in triathlons and ran for extended period of times, but I don't remember how I got started. It's like one day something clicked and I just ran. So one part of me feels refreshed and ready for a new challenge: C25K and the other part is saying, "why set yourself up for failure?" This dichotomy is typical of all my decision making and I am slowly realizing the reason I would eat and forget about the task at hand in the first place. I would inevitably concede to the notion that I "wasn't interested" and avoid doing anything, which is why I am where I am.
I no longer want to live passively and am becoming aware of the thought process that led me to this point. So in the spirit of the SP goals and benchmarks I am placing C25K on the list, though I am extremely hesitant to commit to this. Either way, I intend to complete Week One, Day One tomorrow.