Saturday, February 16, 2013
I think the biggest lesson I've learned this week is that I am not the type of person to do mediation in the morning. In fact, I think I would be more likely to do qi gong in the morning if I didn't attach sitting mediation to it. So my plan for the next week is to still get up when I have, BUT to do no sitting meditation until later in the day.
The trick is, when should I do it? I'd like to do it at the same time every day. I think I'd like to try and do it before I go to sleep at night. I think the reason I don't like meditating in the morning is because that is "wake up" time. I am not yet to the point in my practice that sitting in the morning is effective. But, I think sitting at a time when my mind is getting ready to be more relaxed will help and as I develop my practice, maybe I can start sitting in the morning too.
This learning lessons from my mistakes is a relatively new thing for me. I have, in the past three months, developed a sense of being ok with un-perfection. I remember crying at my first B on a test in the first trimester. Crying. I've gotten Bs since then and I've adjusted my point of view from "failing" those questions, to "opportunities to learn." It really opened my eyes to how many opportunities to l - no, not I - we all have.
We don't fail at diets. We look back and find out what's not working for us. We don't fail at exercise regimens. We look back and find a new way to do things that fits into our schedules. We don't fail at school, we focus on the things that are hard for us. We don't fail at meditation, we find things in our practice that we can work on.
It's incredibly empowering. We have the opportunity to "better" ourselves just by changing a world view. Once that world view has changed, we realize that once we succeed, we realize that we aren't really just better. We're happier, and healthier. And it's in our hands.