Saturday, February 16, 2013
I haven't posted since February 9th and that means my exercise and food logging have been lacking. I have done a few of my Insanity workouts but I feel like I really haven't put 100% effort in any of them. It's just been a crazy 7 days. But, today it ends! I am going to pick myself up and cut the crap. I can't let the craziness of life and it's problems stop me from my goals. So, it's time to pull up my boots by their straps and stop this pattern before I lose all of the progress I've made since January 1st.
For Valentines Day my husband bought me the Fitbit One that I wanted so badly! I'm so excited to have it. He told me he is so proud of how hard I've been working and is amazed at the results I've been getting. Every day he tells me how beautiful I am and encourages me to get my workout done, eat healthy, and take care of myself. I usually respond with negativity because I don't think I'm beautiful. I don't see what he sees. I laugh when he says it and say things like "you need to have your eyes checked" or a sarcastic "yeah, beautiful". But, last night I read a blog post by IndyGirl titled "Dedicated to those who hate themselves" and it really made me stop and think. It really made me stop and think about how negatively I treat myself. When I really began to think about it more in depth, I realized that those negative thoughts I have and the degrading words I speak about myself are the reason I have continually quit on my goals of losing weight and getting healthy. So, today I pledge to begin changing the way I think and speak. I will accept his compliments with gratitude and not reply with self degrading words. I will look in the mirror and start trying to see what it is that he sees when he looks at me. I will no longer spew negative comments about myself or let negative thoughts intefere in my life.
If you have not read IndyGirl's blog, please take a moment to do so. You can find it here: www.sparkpeople.com/mypa
Thank you IndyGirl for opening my eyes to what I am doing to myself. I appreciate your honesty and inspiration.
Have a Spark-filled day!