Saturday, February 16, 2013
It is very clear that i have this anxiety problem that makes me very uneasy and restless when stresslevel rises. Even though I don´t have to eat on it, I notice that the thought of giving up food as medicin forever is unthinkable when I have those anxietyattacks.
I did not overeat yesterday over the worries I felt. But I was thinking a lot about food and that´s why I have spent all morning talking to people and writing about this anxiety. It might be so that when the anxietylevel is too high, I do not binge because it is so obvious that I can´t solve my problem by eating or reach serenity. But afterwards when the acute anxiety is gone, I am okay again... but then comes the empty feeling inside, it is grey, empty and there is no use trying. This can be filled with food. And I am not as attentiv about my reactions as I am when being acutely stressed.
SO the strategy must be to process my stress on a daily basis - and to have some sort of action programme for a couple of days after an emotional turmoil.