Saturday, February 16, 2013
Isaiah 40: 29-31 If you need encouragement in stressful times read this passage in the Bible. I was listening to "Love Worth Finding with Adrian Rogers" online yesterday evening late. Pastor Rogers was talking about stress and weariness. He gave great encouragement with how GOD helps us. He gives us strength. He helps lift us up higher through our weary times. HE helps us to walk and not faint. I am so blessed by this message.
I hadn't blogged very much at all for the past months. I am ill and still recovering, I had two back surgeries in September that seemed to have been going well. I was having pain in the incision areas and other symptoms. The doctor said it was normal for some people to have lingering pain in the incision areas. About a week or more after I collapsed in my bathroom. I had a staph infection in my hip where the implant had been placed. The implant was to help nerved pain in my lower back. The infection had made its way up my spinal cord to my shoulder area. I also had it in my kidneys. I was very ill. I spent about 3 weeks in the hospital, had three more surgeries, and painful treatments to get control of the infection. It was treatable and curable. I continued treatment after coming home for a month with antibiotics. The thing is I didn't bounce back as I had been fighting so hard for. I am still recovering. In all these months I had become discouraged and depressed. I couldn't do anything, I am weak and that limits me more, and then there is the terrible pain that has come back since the implant was removed. I decided not to have it replaced, because my chances of another infection has double. I don't think my body could take it again. The next time it could be MRSA, which is not curable. So I have been a big ball of anxiety over the fact I am stuck with this pain. I have new pain in parts of my back and shoulder I didn't have before. Some days it is so hard to deal with the pain that I become very nervous and I cry uncontrollably. But it is not all bad, because I have the LORD. HE is letting me deal with this stressful times in my own way until I can look up and let HIM lift me up into HIS care. I am not taking pain medications, because they had started affecting my liver along with Liptor for cholesterol. I just stopped taking it. While in the long stay in the hospital I worked very hard to get my health back. It wasn't happening no matter what I did. At home the same thing. I have been having to stay home a lot. I only take short outing because I getting so weak and worn out. I use my walker with a seat. I can sit down when it gets bad for me. I can't go out into my yard without my husband is with me. I have dizziness issue and being weak too can lead to a bad fall. I have to use my walker outside when I do get to go out there. I use a cane in the house. It frustrates me to be back to square one. I feel guilty about all the frustrations and depression I feel. Even so deep in my heart I know GOD is with me holding my hand. I had been struggling as I pray, struggling as I read the Bible, struggling as I listened to my favor preacher on the web. I let the devil do a real number on me. He made me feel hopeless, useless, and lonely. Some days I was a miserable mess. So depressed I just laid on my bed in grief. Devil telling me to give up I wasn't ever going to get back on my feet again. That I should just give up and except it. Lies all lies! I had not been well enough to get back to my sparkpoints page and work on it, or keep my trackers. Planning meals was exhausting for me. I really couldn't stay on line much, because I would get worn out. All I have done is rest and rest and more rest. I was afraid moss might start growing on my body it was so rested. lol
Late yesterday evening as I listen to Pastor Rogers message, I found it so uplifting. He spoke of the Eagle how the storms were nothing to him to endure. The eagle flies about 50 miles an hour, but in the winds of the storm the draft lifts him up and he flies approximately 10 miles per hours sometimes. He grows stronger flying into the storms. Pastor Rogers spoke of those who wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings as eagles. God will renew us when we are weary. He will lift us up in His strength as an eagle is lifted up on the winds of the storm. He said we will run and not be weary. We will walk and not faint. How encouraging this message was for me. The LORD has been dealing with me all a long this stressful time. Giving me encouragement in bit and pieces as I could receive it. I have a few verses to share that has been helpful. Now keep in mind I am still ill, I am still weak, and I am still in pain. God is going to deliver me from it all. He did once before and he will do it again. When I have anxiety I must remember Joshua 1:9 Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed; for the LORD they GOD is with thee whithersoever thou goest. Right now my path looks hopeless. I am back to square one. I am not able to do much of anything. I have to rest a lot. I feel like my feet have been kicked out from under me. I was up and working very hard in my yard and garden last year. Now I can't even go out there by myself. I have to be of good courage and not be afraid. I am going to get well and be able to stand on my own two feet. The LORD said "Stand" Ephesian 6. I claim that for me to stand physically, mentally, and spiritually. Amen! I know the LORD is with me at all times. When I fear I won't ever be able to do the things I was doing I will claim the verse Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. Praise the LORD. When I feel weary and alone in my pain I will remember Matthew 28:20 lo I am with you always even to the end of the world. Amen!
I always feel so guilty in my weak times. Pastor Rogers mention that even Jesus was weary at times. For example Jesus was weary when he sat down at the well of Jacob in John 4:6 Jesus was weary enough to sleep on the ship as the sea had tempest waves beating the ship Matthew 8:24 He always has faith and refreshes himself with spiritual things. It is an example to me to do so in my gray days. Joshua 1;9 Be strong and of a good courage, be not afraid , neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD they God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.
The LORD has lifted my spirit. HE has sent a message through HIS word with the preaching of Adrian Rogers giving God's message for those who are stressed. Please listen to this message preached by Pastor Rogers. It will lift you heart when you listen to what our GOD says.
I thank my GOD for His love, mercy, and for standing with me. He has once again lifted me up. Now I want to share some goals I have made. I am not able to do them yet. I will, however do them.
Goal 1: I plan on walking in the Habitat For Humanity 5k in October. I have plenty of time to finish my recovery, start training and then participate.
Goal 2: I am planning on being in my garden by next month. I am in therapy for my back. It will strength my muscles in my back. I will work very hard to accomplish that. My husband and I have purchased a lot of plants and have them stored in our garden shed with heat. This will be until I can plant the food and flower where they are needed. I will be out there working away.
Goal 3: To get back with Sparkpeople in a regular way. I want to do my trackers, my Sparkpoints Page, and keep in contact with my Sparkers. I want to get back to my healthy habits of eating and exercising.
Thank you everyone who has been so wonderful. Some of you really have stuck with me through these month of my illness and recovery. I still need your prayers as I am still recovering and pray for me to fulfill my goals. I appreciate you all. Some of you are such wonderful friends. I thank my God for all of you. I also want to thank my wonderful husband who has stuck with me through thick and thin. He has prayed for me and hugged me when I cry. I love him so much and thank God for him. Keep praying for me everyone. Read Isaiah 40: 29-31. It will lift you up. Go to Isaiah 40: 29-31 If you need encouragement in stressful times read this passage in the Bible. I was listening to "Love Worth Finding with Adrian Rogers" online yesterday evening late. Pastor Rogers was talking about stress and weariness. He gave great encouragement with how GOD helps us. He gives us strength. He helps lift us up higher through our weary times. He strengthens us. He helps us to walk and not faint. I am so blessed by this message.
Do listen to "Love Worth Finding with Adrian Rogers" online to the February 15 message called "Dealing With Stress" It will bless and help you!