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Saturday, February 16, 2013

Just when I think how I am really making progress with my food- I have a day where about mid afternoon, I started wanting to eat - not candy or dessert- just more food.

Yesterday I was around candy that I bought for other people- lindt truffles- my favorite. I caught a whiff but made a conscious decision to ignore it, ate one cupcake and didn't feel well afterwards- So I convinced myself that- See your body doesn't like that stuff already.

Today I ate a healthy salad and one sweet potato that tasted so good it was like dessert. I didn't finish the salad and thought I was doing so well. My son tried to get me to eat one of his peanutbutter/ chocolate "buckeyes" and I said no, just one will send me down a bad path I had my favorite kind of greek yogurt that has flax seed and chia in it plus some other healthy stuff. so why did I suddenly want more of anything that would feel like I was full?

I did end up eating extra fruit and some leftover fish fillets which I put in my tracker for today since it was past midnight.
I couldn't identify what the trigger was- maybe because I am missing a good friend I can't see as often now?
Or there seems to be an issue where if I really enjoy a food- the yogurt, the sweet potato, even broccoli slaw then I am triggered to want too much of even healthy food.

It seems strange to think I would want to binge on healthy food because I thought sugar and fat were my main triggers as well as creamy comfort foods. I can't even get hummus because I want to eat the whole container of it at once.
I do know that I have done similar things when I have resisted temptation really well and then seemed to relapse over something completely different.

So I'm not sure what it was but it scared me that I would start down a slippery slope again after I had been feeling so positive.
I did do an extra 5 minutes on my bike and I think I feel more in control now- I think somehow I have to get to where I only see food as fuel and not get too much pleasure from it- even healthy stuff.

What has been other people's experience, can we ever get to where food is just fuel and not attached to any pleasure that could trigger overeating? I so want to succeed this time and really make permanent changes for my happiness and my health.

As I reread this blog I added the part about wanting to overeat after I had resisted trigger foods successfully. So maybe that's all this was- I really don't know but I do know it helps to write and think about it.

so thanks for listening,
tomorrow will be better

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  • MARTY728
    We all share the same struggles you described. It is a constant battle. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1851 days ago
    I don't really have answers; however, I agree with many things you have pointed out.

    First of all, if we start looking at food as just the fuel our body needs to function properly, it would be much easier for us not to overeat. If we were to become, say, a car, it would be so easy as there isn't really any choice for each car on its fuel! Unfortunately, we're not like cars and there is SO much variety of food that we can reach out to have as fuel for our bodies. I think that if we try to listen to the body's signs better, it should be easier for us. Also, you need to remember that doing this for, say, 20 days in a good way, after that it will feel quite natural. I was doing that for around 40 days. Then when I went to London for a vacation, I felt a bit out of track even though I didn't really binge there (except once - and I felt so sick afterwards so I relate to your experience!) but now I have to get back on track gradually and turn this into a habit once again. I believe that after another minimum of 2 weeks of great eating again, it will start to feel natural for me to do this (as I felt before I went to London). I think our bodies need time...

    Let's look at the bright side - You're not overeating on unhealthy food. That would be disastrous if you keep on doing for a very long time. You are eating healthy food. That's a good thing. But you're right with saying that overeating healthy food is still not good.

    What I'm doing to get back on track is gradually decrease my calories to how they were before London. But I'm not doing it suddenly. Slowly... I will get there. I want this badly and I'm sure you do too. It's for our own's sake!

    Hang in there!

    Bella emoticon
    1855 days ago
    emoticon Although I don't have any good answers except good old self control and self respect, I do totally understand and relate. I can have a perfectly wonderful day with healthy eating and water consumption and activiity and get bored or lonely at night and find myself eating a whole box of granola bars or fiber bars. Totally healthy items when they are included in my healthy diet but when you sit in front of the TV and eat 6 of them because they taste good it's a problem. The fact that you are missing your friend could have subconsiously contributed to the eating. My therapist has always advised me to stop and think about the reasons I am trying to lose weight and get healthy and decide if the food is more important than that. Sometimes just stopping and thinking keeps from eating anymore. Hang in there and pat yourself on the back and not giving in to the sweets!! Small victories!
    1856 days ago
    I have the sought of personality that makes binging a necessity now and agin. I equate fulness with happiness, and when I THINK THINGS ARE BEST UNDER CONTROL, I FIND THEY AREN'T My best answer is to do things on a average over a week, rather than day to day. That way I can factor in the binges. I have stopped tracking, and take each day as it comes, and that helps too.
    1856 days ago
    I have the same problems. I love food! I love eating! I have a hard time controlling both!
    1857 days ago
    Im in there with you!
    1857 days ago
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