Friday, February 15, 2013
I got a new scale the other day since I moved into our new place! It is very cute and a really good scale, my honey said we should splurge on it since it is such a priority in my life right now. (Hurray!)
So my first weigh-in on the new scale was a bummer. It was up .8 of a pound from the last time I had weighed, which was about a week before that.
Okay, so here we are: I had been exercising, but not eating as well as I would like. It is extremely hard for me to adjust my eating habits to a new house. There has been a fair amount of booze to celebrate the new beginning and plenty of tasty treats, especially for Valentine's Day. If you guys know me you know my ultimate weakness is for celebratory foods!! (Yeah, that poor box of chocolates I got yesterday is dwindling quickly.)
Here are the main factors I should remember:
1. There has been holiday eating, and I haven't been very precise with my tracking and measuring.
2. This is a new scale, the old scale was POSSIBLY about two pounds light on it's weighing, it's an old scale.
3. Alcohol causing water retention and that may have affected my weigh-in.
But that still doesn't change the fact that I went off the rails a little bit yesterday, still feeling a little down from my first weigh-in on the new scale being such a bummer for me. I was doing so good and my plan was to be about 165 today. 170 is the weight that I just can't seem to get below. It's almost like I get the munchies just thinking about the fact that I weigh lower than I have since I was 15.
OKAY, so here is my mission statement for myself right now. I'll have to print this out and post it next to my door so I can always remind myself of my ultimate goal:
My goal is to reach a healthy BMI. I want to weigh between 140 and 150. 140 may seem unattainable, since I can never remember seeing that number on a scale I've ever set foot on, but I will exercise 30 minutes a day and eat between 1200 to 1500 calories to achieve that goal. I will not let myself get distracted and I will not let the sugar-monster inside me convince me that going 300 calories over my limit every day will somehow even out in the end. I will pay attention to what I eat and remember to eat for energy, not enjoyment. This has been my dream for years, and has become an achievable goal recently. I will allow myself mistakes now and then, but I will not be so lenient on myself that I cannot grow, learn, and reach my final finish line.
Remember: If I coddle my poor eating habits, I will not set the boundaries I need. If I don't create a path to follow, I will trample the beauty beyond so that I won't be able to stand back and enjoy it.
Visualize: I am walking on a path that has been marked off by none other than myself. The edges of the path aren't vague, but made by the boundaries of bark to grass and then wilderness. I am known to wander off the path and follow my own hearts desires, but I won't be able to make it to the ocean if I keep getting lost in the woods. Then, I will return home with wonderful memories of the woods, but no memory of the ocean, and isn't that what I set out to see in the first place? Won't I be kind of bummed out that I never got to see what I wanted to see all along? That beautiful bluff that I heard everyone talk about is still there, ready to be seen by anyone willing to make the full trek there! I will have enjoyed my adventure, but I will have let myself be left out.
If I enjoy looking at the forest, maybe pause to hear the bird calls or watch a squirrel scamper up a tree, but continue on the path that will lead me to the bluff, I will find that satisfaction of sticking with it and making it to the end. I will be able to see the oceans and the seagulls and celebrate with everyone else who made it! There will still be time to step off the path and pick a wildflower bouquet, or see what's hidden in the knot of that giant tree, as long as I remember that I only have so much daylight left until I need to turn around and head home. Plus, I only ever see small hints of sunlight in the forest, beams pushing their way through the branches, and when I make it to the bluffs I can revel in the full sunshine and soak in the rays!
(This is the exact description of myself, my thought process, who I am. I love distractions. love 'em!)