Friday, February 15, 2013
I guess it was my nerves that woke me again at 4am today because my bladder doesn't usually give me grief until 5.
After thinking about my bladder briefly and realizing that it was still in pretty good shape, my heart sank because I realized that I was up WAY early yet again!
I am actively trying to NOT be overwhelmed by all of my (and the world's) current events...sometimes it works and sometimes 4am happens!
I am getting excited/nervous about our move...fyi, we have to leave a day earlier because my beau is having the power cut off a day earlier than I had planned, which is ok but it squeezes our schedule just a tiny bit. I am working through the 26th and instead of picking up the truck the 27th and leaving the 28th, I will have to pick it up after I get off of work on the 26th which gives us until whatever time they turn the power off on the 27th to load it, sweep and mop the apartment (everything else is clean), and get ourselves gone. I told him that since our plans changed by a whole day, I don't want to drive through the night. With my beau's physical problems, it will be my son and I doing all the lifting and loading...I am just glad that we don't have a whole lot of heavy stuff! I will drive until I am tired and then we can get a hotel. I just don't want to have to rush it or push myself to beat rush hour traffic times when we hit the Chicago area.
My son got an attitude that he will sleep out in the truck that night because he will have his cat and kitten with him and I told him he can bring them into the room as long as they don't sleep on my face or claw me up...the baby kitty hasn't figured out how to sheath his claws yet and holds on like very sharp velcro.
I spent a bit of time talking to my beau last night about Oscar Pistorius (Olympic blade runner) being charged with the murder of his girlfriend. I am hoping that it was an accident, it is terrible for his girlfriend and her family and friends, I feel weird about it all though because he inspired me so much! I have NEVER really given myself over to a celebrity or athlete before. I was so offended by some of the comments that were being left on the news articles, making fun of him for having missing legs, etc...people are so terrible sometimes. No matter what happened, I am trying to get it through my head that a person's public persona isn't who they really are. Which is something that I KNOW, but got caught up in the moments of inspiration with him. (Wow, probably non of that made sense except to me, lol!)
I popped online this morning before leaving for work...my home page at home is set to yahoo news and the first thing I see is the meteor that hit in Russia! I watched two of the videos at home and a third at work. They are terribly scary! Interesting, but scary! Honestly, the first thing I would have thought is 'missile'! I am glad that there were no deaths associated with it and hope they get the damage cleared up quickly.
A bit closer to home...
I outlined and explained to my son EXACTLY why I am so worried and why his tantrum over buffet pizza is bothering me, then I told him that I was offering help. I can share good information with him if and when he wants it. I then told him that I love him no matter what and that the ball is in his court. We didn't say much else the rest of the evening, but he did start packing his stuff for the move. When we get up to Illinois, my beau and I will be staying at my sisters and he is planning on getting an apartment with a friend of his from school because his dad rented out his room after my son moved in with me so he can't stay there.
I guess that all I can do is be there for him when he needs/wants me to be.
Today is my beau's and my 4 year anniversary of actually being together (we knew each other for like 5 years online previously), since we have so much of our funds going towards the move, tonight will be home made (lamb) gyros for dinner and watching Doctor Who.
While our lives may have several ongoing challenges to deal with, I am so in love with him and I am thankful every day that we found each other!