Refusing to Give Up What I Want Most, For What I Want Now!!
Friday, February 15, 2013
I'm here to take back control of my life! I've spent most of my adulthood overweight & unhappy. As a child growing up until my early twenties I had always maintained a healthy weight. I was never super skinny I felt I always had curves compared to most girls my age. I never had unhealthy eating habits in fact I hardly ever ate! I can't tell you how or what went wrong & why I doubled in my size these past two decades. All I know is that I drove myself down to the path of self destruction (maybe I have an emotional eating disorder) but certainly not an excuse at all for gaining 100+ lbs on & off in the past years! Dying to go back to the healthier 12/14 sized body frame I had always been use to in my life.
They say you control your own destiny so from now on things are going to change for me because I want to look & feel FABULOUS again before I lost my way! I know patience is virtue & that has always been my set back in trying to loose the weight... giving up was always easier than moving forward one step at a time. Not getting anywhere quickly kept me fustrated. Excercise is my worst enemy I don't feel energized enough it's so frustrating for me. So I'm hoping once I continue eating healthier following my meal plans I will loose more weight & feel more energy so I can move more. I really want & need to bring myself back to life to being that loving, happy, positive & motivated person with self esteem & great confidence. I know I need to give my all in order to accomplish what I came here to reclaim. I know the spark it's within me somewhere & I won't give up until I find it back.