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Friday, February 15, 2013

This week has been a huge struggle mentally. The trip up north to the parentals left me exhausted and seriously questioning why I even bother. I specifically told everyone that lean meat and veggies would be great. We had nothing but sausage, bacon and burgers.......only veggies were some peas I dug up from the bottom of the freezer one day. My family doesn't care about my weight and does everything to sabotage the efforts. Is it because they feel guilty.....who knows. But it has left me wondering why I'm even bothering. I know all the reasons that people around for the grandkids, feel better, less pain, you know the thoughts, but to all these i ask why?? I don't get to see my son doesn't speak to me, who cares if I'm healthy and live a long time, the only time family wants me around is for money or to do the things they don't want to do. Who cares if I'm in pain, even the doctors won't provide what is needed and the insurance companies deny everything anyway. I'm really tired of fighting the life. I've tried volunteering, getting active in groups all the usual stuff with no success. I'm resentful of the fact that my hubby spends more on his habits than my entire household budget leaving me with nothing extra for rewards or anything else. I'm tired of having to fight to find the money to pay the bills and yet everyone still hits me up for more. Guess what.....I finally ran out!! Bummer!! Find another sugar momma!! When you've spent your entire life giving and giving and getting nothing in return you eventually run dry. Guess I'm dried up in more ways than one. I don't just feel trapped, I really am trapped. The options are not options for me at this time. So what does it take to make them options......we'll see.
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    Why not?


    You have 50 trillion cells in your body that depend on you and that work very hard with what you give them in terms of nutrition, exercise, water and self care/love.

    Do it for them...they will appreciate it at least!

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    1853 days ago
  • MRSGOAT9699
    Being a mom and wife really is a thankless job, isn't it? I have good kids and a good hubby, but I still feel like I'm taken for granted a lot of the time. Bottom line, weight loss only works if YOU want it. You have to do it for you, not everyone else. Keep your chin up, I wish you the best! emoticon
    1861 days ago
    Sounds like you have run into a bunch of takers and ingrates. Don't let them put you down... do it for YOU. Stop giving to them and they will stop asking. Think I would skip visits to the parentals for awhile. If they need an explanation, tell them the truth. If that doesn't wake them up, nothing will. Go back and read your blogs. They might give you the motivation you need right now. Don't let anyone or anything take you away from your journey.
    1861 days ago
  • MJRVIC2000
    It seem to me that your self analysis indicates you need help! You had an opportunity to teach your parents something about healthy eating and the need for lifestyle changes. You recognize the changes You need to do in your life, so do them and be the blessed example to others which God has placed in your heart to His glory. God Bless YOU! Vic.
    1861 days ago
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