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The Empty Air that Used to Be ME!

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Friday, February 15, 2013

I just came bounding up the office stairs and really thankful for the fact I can.

That is a long reach from the days in the past when I couldn't work out. When I was on crutches and even had to use a wheelchair. My dear husband would always drop me at the front of wherever we were going and pick me up afterwards. 3 years ago, I had both of my knees replaced. It took 2 years to get the strength back that I lost from not being able to work out. It was an exhausting time both physically and mentally.

It is hard to believe that I am actually leading an exercise class today. It wouldn't have even been something I thought I could do again. I have to admit, it feels good to have people who look up to you to lead them on the journey to fitness, even though you are still in that journey yourself.

Think about it....I am not the typical model for a fitness guru. I am in the middle of this marathon and people look at me and want to join the marathon. There are a few that I look at in the class I lead, and think...they are in better shape that I am...., but yet they come.

I suppose part of the psychology of this journey is to see myself the way others see me. "Love your neighbor as yourself"....I still have a long way to go with the mental side of this. It is not as difficult to look in the mirror and not tear myself apart.

I can actually take pleasure in putting on a pair of jeans that nearly fall off of me, that at one time, where skin tight. That empty air...used to be me....

I can tell that my legs have shrunk as I can nearly run up stairs, that about a year ago was a challenge to walk up. Then there are those underwear that are starting to look like bloomers on me. It is nearly hilarious to see the empty air... that used to be me....

One night I turned over in the bed, but the bottoms of my pajamas fell off...I guess I should find some that fit, but it is pretty cool see the empty air... that used to be me.

I don't even want to mention the bras...OH well...suppose they had to shrink too.....That empty air... used to be me....

There was the dress that I would wear to parties. I tried to wear it for a Christmas party. It looked utterly ridiculous...Fell off my shoulders...didn't even have to unzip the zipper...All that empty air...used to be me....

The t-shirt that used to be my favorite one, now looks like a parachute. I was going to wear it to gym, but it was falling off of me....All that empty air...used to be me...

It is 75 pounds of air that used to be me. Ponder on that for just one minute....I don't even like to pick up the bag of potatoes at the store. I lost over 7 of those bags in weight. I couldn't carry a 75 pound bag on my back, but somehow carried it on my body for years. It is amazing to me.

This is my ode to empty air....75 pounds of it. What used to be me isn't anymore.

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  Great job! I hope you rewarded yourself with some new clothes when you went shopping!

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JOANNHUNT 3/2/2013 3:46PM

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Have a question for you. Have you been able to kneel on your new knees? I had both mine done just over 2 years ago.

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FITNESSVIXENN 3/2/2013 10:09AM

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SHERRY28269 2/23/2013 5:04PM

    Great blog! Congrats on your success thus far! Buy some clothes that fit you and try on the old ones occasionally to keep reminding yourself how far you have come. Keep taking pictures so you can capture your journey and remind yourself you never want to go back to where you came from 75 pounds ago. Best of luck!

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PCASEY7 2/22/2013 11:58PM

    Congrats on the weight loss! Keep up the great work!

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DOTTY7267 2/21/2013 8:40PM

    Congrats on the empty air!
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CM_GARDNER78 2/21/2013 2:26PM

    FANTASTIC!! You have come so far - congratulations!!! You should be so proud of your accomplishments!! GREAT blog! :-)

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RGEETING 2/21/2013 12:34PM

    Love your Ode to Empty Air - that used to be you! :)
Thanks for being on the marathon ahead of me... you're an encouragement!

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SAM_GEEK1 2/19/2013 8:24AM

    Congratulations! You're amazing! emoticon

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    A fascinating perspective! emoticon

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ROSE284 2/18/2013 10:21AM

    Congrats on your 75lbs loss! And I love the idea of 'empty air' that used to be you.

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MANILUS 2/17/2013 7:49PM

    Congrats, must be awesome to be leading!

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MARIANNE9855 2/17/2013 7:13PM

    wow, great blog- very inspiring- after losing 20 pounds so far I was able to rush to the car tonight ahead of my husband and son- I don't think my son could believe it.Its amazing how losing even a little bit of weight and starting to exercise can make a such a big difference in your physical movement. emoticon

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ALASKABRED 2/17/2013 5:40PM

    Loved your post. What a creative and wonderful way to describe your journey!


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ALIWVU121 2/17/2013 5:20PM

    Awesome! Way to go! I've also lost 75 pounds and I have never thought about it the way you have! Sometime I get discouraged because I'm not at goal yet and my body is far from perfect, so I definitely needed this! Thanks and keep up the amazing work!

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FEDUP!1 2/17/2013 9:13AM

    Hey Mary!
Great blog! Congrats on the weight loss! Way to go!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CAROLYN0107 2/17/2013 6:12AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Great Blog! Congratulations on your 75 pound loss!!!
Congratulations also on getting a Featured Blog award!!!!!

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CHANGE4THEBEST 2/17/2013 4:12AM

    Wow - what a journey you have been through. I stumbled on your blog while looking for inspiration - YOU ARE A MOTIVATOR!! Its spring next month and I don't want to do a fashion parade in front of the mirror before I leave my home!

Keep up the good work and keep blogging and continued success with your journey.

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