Friday, February 15, 2013
Ah, the day after Valentine's Day...
In my pre-spark days, a 'day after' would have been one filled with guilt, regret and a new resolution to "really start now, and this time I mean it!" Those chocolate candies, calorie laden dinner and wine would have made me feel full and probably slightly sick. Instead, I prepared us a healthy dinner and then we took a long walk together. There were flowers and a lovely card. And no candy. None whatsoever. And no rich desserts.
And I felt great! It is hard to believe that I could feel so good when having to give up my favorite goodies. And yes, I'm the type that used every celebration, holiday or 'it's our Friday evening routine' to pig out. (That is of course in between the normal binge days, but hey, a celebration is ok isn't it? Everybody eats more then!)
Walking the path of better health and new choices is not always easy. But there are rewards that make it all worth it. And waking up this morning, feeling good about how I dealt with another tempting excuse to overindulge, is the best reward I could get!
Self love. I used to think those words sounded so selfish and self absorbed. I was here to love others and take care of my family. And every need I squashed, every frustration I felt, was soothed with some calorie laden treat or binge. And I now understand that loving myself by taking care of myself is the best way of showing my love for my family.
I know, I know, that seems so obvious. But knowing something and really understanding what that means on a day to day basis are two totally different things.
So, thank you SP for giving me the best valentines day ever. The gift of self care and self love.