Discouraged, but trying to stay on track....
Friday, February 15, 2013
Soooo..... January has been over for a while now, but my life has been so crazy lately that being behind is pretty much the norm, not the exception. Working on changing that, but there is only so much a person can do sometimes.
When it comes to summarizing January, I accomplished my goal of getting back into exercising. I did not get as many fitness minutes as I wanted to, but I had fallen so far off track the previous three months that consistent exercise in any amount is a win. So, I feel good about that part! That being said, I do not feel at all good about my progress in weight-loss and getting smaller. My weight has fluctuated between 208 and 212 constantly with no downward progress. This is almost back to my starting weight, so this is very discouraging! I still can't believe I put back on 10 pounds during my three months of slacking and sickness. Ugh! And since I know your next question will be what my measurements did, I will admit those were bad too. Not only did they not go down, a few of them actually went up. YIKES!!! For a fleeting moment I considered just giving up when I saw my measurements. However, that temptation was short-lived and I decided instead to renew my efforts and make some much needed changes to diet while also continuing to increase my workouts. I have a goal and I am going to do everything I can to make that goal! I am going to fit into that stunning blue dress for my daughter's graduation in June! I HAVE to do this for myself.
And soooo...... I am working hard for the month of February, keeping focused on my goals ahead of me! And funny thing is, since taking my measurements, I have developed a whole new will to change my diet and a determination to get in my workouts. I have made the decision to put myself first more than I usually do. Because funny thing is, the house may be a disaster when I get home from work, and I may have five projects that have to be finished, but without my workout my efficiency goes way down and I usually don't make my deadlines anyway. So why not take the time to make myself a priority, and in turn feel better and usually get far more done. I am learning to not let food rule me. Oh yes, I have had a few "splurge" items this week, but I have cut my calories way down the rest of the day so it shouldn't be a problem. I am also renewing my focus on fruits, veggies and protein. Save that stuffed chocolate cake for a small treat! I am learning to wait until I am truly hungry to eat something and say "no" to myself a whole lot more. Nothing tastes as good as those adorable jeans in my closet will feel to wear when I get small enough!
I also decided to join a group of women in town who are training for a few half marathons that are coming up this year in Boise. I think this will give me extra incentive to really push myself, stick to my goals and get where I want to this year. My schedule is going to continue being crazy with a daughter graduating from high school and getting ready for college, but somehow in the midst of all that I can't neglect myself!
Another thing I am trying to do right now is get back to making sure my outfits make me feel good. This is a little harder right now because some of my regular clothes are too tight after my three month slacking session, but feeling good every day helps in so many areas of life. And just because I am not the size I want to be yet, I don't have to neglect myself.