Thursday, February 14, 2013
So I had a great day. Spent time with my hubby at his work with our son dropping off valentines and cookies (from our son) to him and his mom and dad and meanwhile cleaned his office. He had junk everywhere that employees have left in there, etc. I started just messing with him and kind of making fun of things in there like "what is this? Do you need this? Where does it go?" and before I knew it we were both clearing stuff out and his office looked great! It was fun :) Then I stopped over at his grandpa's to drop off a valentine and cookies and chatted for a while there . I've NEVER stopped by on a whim or been there without my husband. Simply because I'm shy and awkward. But I decided I'm done with that. I have the time now, I'm going to use it and do the things I feel in my heart I want to do and not let my insecurities get in the way - and I'm so glad I did! They were really happy we stopped by. :) Then had lunch, got my son a short nap and then went to a local museum/victorian era house thing in the area with my mom - she had a voucher I gave her for Christmas. Then came home, had some chinese with hubby and now watching my awesome Thursday shows LOL.
I did not work out. I ate yummy but crappy food and too much of it. I'm not happy about that, but I'm not letting it ruin the fact that I had a great day.
I'm happy :)
And here's the thing - my point: I had a crappy day on the nutrition front. But on the happiness and family front, things were great. I am not going to beat myself up about my mistakes with food. I am not going to judge my day's value or my personal value by how I do with food and exercise alone. I did good things today with interpersonal relationships. There are lots of things I "should" have done, but I'm apparently done thinking of all the failures and feeling like my day was a waste because of them. I, for once, actually am just letting myself be happy about the good things I did. This is amazing and I think great. I think also that while it may sound strange, in the long run this type of outlook will help my journey to health. I could go on and on trying to explain it, but I think many of you will get it. So I'm not saying "I ate crappy but enjoyed it" - nope, that's not it. Essentially, yep I ate crappy, that was a down point, but I had so much good in my day, I'm thankful for that! I am focusing on the positives. Not blocking out or in denial of my errors, just more compassionate with myself I think. :) Also the happier I am, the kinder I am to myself, the less likely I am to binge. The more likely I am to do what's right for me and my health. I've learned so much on this journey, and I'm amazed at all I'm still learning. We'll see, but I think...
This is good. :)
Hope you all had a LOVEly day.