I'm back at 1
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Back at 197 plus 1 pounds that is. Smh..... I've come to the realization that my body is not, will not going to lose this weight no matter how much I change my eating habits.. I can not nor have I ever gotten out of the 190's in about 10 years. I've been racking my brains since I picked up the weight back in 1990 the year my daughter was born. I gained 15 pounds before I got pregnant (stopped smoking) and then gained 38 pounds while carrying her. In spite of that I still weighed 15 pounds less than I do now. My weight has been going up and up since the early 90's. I remember going on a strict diet back in 2001 using this plan that a co worker gave me. Between it and walking while pushing a heavy 6 seat, kid stroller around the parameter of my job each day I was able to lose about 30 pounds but I gained it all back plus an additional 5-6 more once I stopped following the diet.
I feel that without exercise, regular exercise and a large amount of it l just won't be able to get this weight off. I feel like my body is in an all out rebellion to hold on to what it's accustomed to having, this extra 50 plus pounds of weight. That it is telling me I'm not going to let this weight go, no matter how much you try to change your eating habits(and change is what I have done) I have concentrated for the last 5 or so years on changing what I eat. It started with eating whole grains and less fried and little fast food to now eating more fruits and vegetables and cutting out coffee and now gluten (which my body can't tolerate, just found this out this year). In spite of this my weigh continues to fluctuate 5 to 9 pounds and has done so for many years. I guess the only thing that is going to help me is exercise exercise, exercise and lots of it. My fear is that it will have to consume me in order to 1. be effective and 2. stay effective if and when I reach a weight that I am comfortable with. O well enough of my rant......