Thursday, February 14, 2013
A couple of days ago my Mother, who has Alzheimer's, did not remember me for a period of time. This was a wrenching and personal moment between the two of us and is hard to explain. I tried to connect with her, to see into my soul, and have her recognize the daughter she still remembers but in a different way. We looked at each other for a long time and she came back to me, remembering or recognizing me. She was very sad and scared that she did not know me. I later realized that who she is seeing may not be my physical countenance but who I am inside. I realized that I am slowly becoming an Avatar of myself, in the same manner as the movie. I may not be resembling myself in Moms eyes and this will continue until whatever the future holds. However, there is a connection that has nothing to do with appearance.
For many of us who are in the journey of weight loss and health improvement, we have already been Avatars for awhile. We may not resemble the person we think we really should be and are walking Avatars awaiting to fit into a skin more comfortable for us. The same can be said for those that have attained their ultimate destination. They may appear to be an Avatar of their former self, for those who are not used to seeing them in their new scaled down selfs. The important thing wherever we are in this journey of new self discovery is not to allow the "real" self inside to think it needs to change, because we are all beautiful worthy souls inside, irregardless of the size of our Avatar body. Our body should not define us and we should not place our entire idea of happiness in the size of our jeans, because once we get there we may find that happiness is elusive if we are not surrounded by friends and family. I do not mind being an Avatar as long as those I love embrace me for what they see inside my soul. Have a great day my new found friends.