Thursday, February 14, 2013
I lost another 2 pounds today so I hit lucky 16! I've really been keeping my carb intake under control, and I've been getting lots of exercise. I'm still having trouble getting 10K steps per day, but I'm not too worried about it since I am doing cardio work and pilates.
The other day, I realized that giving up the carbs is a lot like when I quit smoking 11 years ago. I knew for a long time that it was the right thing to do. I knew that I would feel better and be healthier. But knowing that it is the right thing to do and DOING IT are two entirely different things. I had to get to the place where I knew that I just couldn't live like that anymore.
For smoking, I got to that place when I had pneumonia and bronchitis a week before my wedding day. For carbs and overeating? Well, it wasn't as clear cut, it wasn't just one moment. It was a series of many small moments. Trying to keep up with my kids. Getting winded going up a flight of stairs. Being afraid of falling because I don't have the core strength and stability I need. Being tired of being the "fat mom" in the room with all the other dance moms or at a school function. And I know this sounds vain, but I remember when men used to look at me. They don't anymore. I am invisible. Isn't that funny? I take up a lot more room in their field of vision, but I'm invisible. I'm happily married and I'm not looking for someone, but I miss the days when I was young and thinner and cuter.
So now I've given up the carbs and as I expected, I feel great. I'm losing weight, I have tons of energy. I've lost 16 pounds and I've gained 16 tons of energy. How do I keep from going back? When I quit smoking, I'd look enviously at smokers and try to get close enough to smell the cigarette smoke. It took years before those cravings died away. So I guess I will have to fight the cravings for carbs, too. But I can do it. I have gone 11 years without smoking and I plan to go a lifetime without it. I don't need bread and cake and potatoes to survive. In fact, just like cigarettes, they are poison to me and I have to remember that. The one day that I ate too many carbs, I felt like crap the next day. Upset tummy yet STARVING all day. So I'm gonna stick with it. Hi, my name is Trixie and I'm a carboholic.