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OK, HELP HELP HELP, I SURE NEED IT


Thursday, February 14, 2013



OKAY I AM ASKING FOR HELP, THIS HOLIDAY, REALLY MAKES ME STRESSED, WHY ?? BECAUSE I AM ALONE, AND STRUGGLING. YES I GUESS I HAVE MADE SOME PROGRESS, READ MY FEW BLOGS, ONLY A FEW OF THEM, QUICK READS, BUT YOU CAN TELL I AM PASS THE STRESS POINT, A MELTDOWN IS COMING ANY MINUTE, WHAT DO I DO?

Guess stop yelling maybe, lol, not sure what will happen now, but at least now no one can say I did not ask for help, I screamed it out loud, food food food, just 1 issue among many for me , but I am aware we all have issues, some much more dramatic than mine, and when not stressed I am thankful for that, honest I am, but even my prayers seem to let me down once in awhile, and who am I to judge why that is, definitely not me. Surgery looming, if I don't die from it, which could happen if it burst and contaminate my entire body from the inside out, then being alone and being lonely , this alone sends many over the edge, for me there is no more edge I am already down below looking up, but hey I see the light, right?

okay enough , as there is 1-2 more things that really have me upset, things I can not do and yet have worked so DANG HARD TO BE ABLE TO DO, AND STILL CAN'T, but this is not the time for this, but believe me when I say these 2 things cause me the most stress at times, just trust me ok

Happy Valentines day
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BRATT6504 3/8/2013 7:55AM

  Yes going this jouney alone does stink. Working out alone is real hard for me.but we can do it. emoticon

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ASHLEIGH1985 2/15/2013 11:50AM

    Hello Patrick,

I would just like to offer a thought on being frustrated about wanting to do things you can't. I know it sounds trite, but you have to be patient with yourself. I can sympathize with being impatient with oneself. I have to consciously remind myself I didn't get heavy overnight and it won't be overnight that it will go away. The work you put into it may not give you the immediate results you'd like to see as quickly as you'd like to see them, but what you might interpret as a small improvement is still an improvement. Also, the holidays are just what they say; days. Not weeks or months, just a day. Those days might be hard, but it is only temporary, as they say. Hope that made sense to you and good luck on your journey!

~Ashleigh

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CAMSEDGE 2/14/2013 8:45PM

    First...Happy Valentines's Day...it is a lovely day...lots of flowers and balloons...pretty stuff all about. I understand about being alone...but really...being alone is not bad. Look at all the people who have responded to you...thanking you for adding them as friends...keeping up with you. Just take each day and moment at a time. There are so many things to be thankful for and happy about...no need to focus on something negative....You spent time on the bike at the gym today...that is great...great stride forward. Life doesn't happen overnight...one of my favorite stories is that of the Velveteen Rabbit...the discertation of the Skin Horse on how you become real...it happens over a long time...you get shabby, your hair gets pulled out and you may lose one of your button eyes...but when a child loves you ...you don't mind...you become real...and it doesn't happen to those with sharp edges or that break easily...I am just paraphrasing ..the story is much more eloquent and speaks volumes about what the journey of life is...the Bible admonishes us to "think on good things and be of good report"...there are so many beautifull and inspiring sources.

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.DUSTY. 2/14/2013 2:54PM

    A lot of people don't blog or read blogs often (myself included:) How about getting more involved in your SparkTeams. Join a couple of challenges and discussions.

Every month has some type of holiday. Who cares? Getting down on yourself doesn't help. Start your own traditions.

Time to suck it up and start challenging some of your negative thoughts.

What specific things have you tried to help overcome some of your loneliness?

I know it's harder for people of our size but you need to starting reaching out locally. No one is going to come knocking on our doors.

Book clubs, fishing clubs, walking clubs (at your local mall) volunteering (yes even at our weight there is lots we can do). Foster a puppy. The list is pretty endless.

I don't know where you live but there are SparkTeams for just every state and just about every city. Rallies, get togethers, etc.
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2BEHEALTHY2014 2/14/2013 1:41PM

    Like the others said, today is just another day. My husband and I d 't do anything different than any other day. Try not to stress about it and just take care of you.

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PKTRUCKDRIVER 2/14/2013 1:40PM

   
This what I did so far, went to the gym and did 3 miles on a stationary bike , worked up a small sweat, but no chaffing, lol.

I really need some help, the holiday is today, what about the next day and so on, I'm like old faithful , just waiting to blow, yet I am not wishing to, just headed that way.

Trying to see what comes of this attempt of reaching out for help, and unsure what I will get in return, a few words of encouragement, I guess so, what else can I get, I tried finding friendss on here near me to have as a workout buddy or what ever it is they call it, but had no luck, maybe I did it wrong, not really sure, but would be niceto not be alone ,ALL THE TIME, being able to walk with someone, etc...but it does not look promising, at least yet

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SCZKCZ 2/14/2013 11:13AM

    This day is no different than any other day! Don't fall into the hype of needing to be with someone on this day. It's ridiculous!!! You have yourself and you have to take care of you!!!!
You are here, you are trying, you are asking for help. And we're here to let you know you are not alone.

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SUGAR0814 2/14/2013 11:13AM

    Valentine's Day is just another day! Love yourself first! Be your own Valentine. I'm married & we don't celebrate this holiday. Don't go overeating! Go workout! Happy Valentine's Day!

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DAMIENHUSTED 2/14/2013 10:42AM

    Listen man this holiday is made up, its a made up holiday so people can buy presents, flowers that die in a week, cocoa that gets eaten all in one day, teddy bears that after today will never be seen again. All this holiday is, is about spending money. If you feel stressed and have time go to the gym or go for a run and since todays color is red for love go to the gym and make your muscles red from working out hard and get what is called the pump good luck man and have a good day.

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ICBNIC 2/14/2013 10:32AM

    Patrick!
Stop thinking of this holiday in terms of being with another person!! I call it love day and use it as a day to express my love for family and friends.... let's be honest it's JUST another Thursday really!!! :) You are loving yourself enough to take care of YOUR health so you are giving yourself the greatest valentine! :) YOU are not alone my friend! :) Feel free to email me if you need a daily checker-inner pal! :)
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