Thursday, February 14, 2013
It's been a rough week eating-wise. I haven't gone completely off the charts terrible with my decisions, but they haven't exactly been the best.
I'm already kicking myself today a little because I decided to allow myself to get breakfast on my way to work. As I pulled up to the drive through window, I had a healthy(ish) option in mind, but when they asked me what I wanted I blurted out Egg & Cheese on a BISCUIT (!) and a hash brown. I then proceeded to scarf both of those things down during the 5 remaining minutes of my drive to work. 460 calories and 24 grams of fat later, I'm feeling awful. I knew I would feel awful before I ate it but I still proceeded to do so.
Why do we do these things to ourselves? I didn't gain anything from eating that (besides, possibly, weight) and it made me feel terrible, yet the temptation to eat things that are "bad" is always there.
On top of all that, I didn't lose a single pound this week. I had a friend visiting over the weekend and we ate out a couple of times, but I did try to stay in line with all of my other meals to make up for it and I still worked out according to schedule (aside from skipping a little yoga on Sunday morning). I have another friend visiting this weekend and, while she's very careful about her weight and we have plans to go to the gym, I'm still worried that I'll be tempted to go out to eat and drink. I've been trying to think of things we can do together that are physically active, rather than going out to "party" but I know that's going to be a hard thing to sell.
Anyway, I'm going to Zumba tonight before rehearsal and I'm hoping I'll have time to swing by Wegmans and get a salad for dinner, especially after my horrendous breakfast.
I'm trying to keep the mentality that even if the weight's not coming off, exercising is benefiting my body on the inside as well as benefiting my mental health. I just have to keep repeating that to myself...it's so hard not to get discouraged when the scale doesn't move :./