Thursday, February 14, 2013
yup, takin a break from my "song" titled blogs to write this one. i think this one is really important, i want to write it down, so i can look back on it, when i am having a rough day.
so far, this year has been a pretty rough one. my mother had emergent heart surgery, my daughter ended up in ER with an infection that got out of control, and work is more stressful than ever. on top of all that, yesterday, i found out my step father has just been diagnosed with bladder (stage IV) and prostate cancer.
usually, when i start to eat right and exercise, and really get a momentum going, something bad seems to happen, i fall apart and go back into eating junk, comfort food, and not exercising and a depressed state.
i thought yesterday might start the cycle again, but then... came the best valentine's day present i ever got from my husband! first, let me say, in the past i think my husband has unconsciously sabotages my getting healthy habits. but yesterday he said something, that made me feel so good.
he said, "tammy, i think you have a very strong soul, i think satan would want nothing more than to have you go back to the depressed unmotivated person again. but hon, you are gonna do it, you are gonna make your dream of being healthy again. don't let the bad news or things get you down, be the person your spirit longs to be, the one God made you to be. you can do this, and i support you fully! remember all those blogs you wrote a few years back, when you were in your best healthy state? read them, get some inspiration from them. you can do it, and i am wanting to help you!"
how much better than a box of chocolates, flowers ect, this was for me! granted, those things are nice, but hearing those words, from my husband are far more meaningful and motivating than any of those other things.
SO, today, i have decided to give MYSELF a valentine's gift... i am going to stay on track with my healthy eating and i am gonna do one KILLER work out today, for me, so next year, i can look back and see, that this was the best gift ever, and see how far i have come, getting back to my healthy, happy self!