Thursday, February 14, 2013
So, here I am.
I fell off the wagon again. I guess in a manner of speaking you could say that my health played a large part in it. I managed to get some sort of flu or something that kept me down, and then I have been having women's problems, which I am unaccustomed to. My physical therapy office canceled three appointments in a row because of the therapists getting ill, and that was another good motivator that went away. Being sick made my blood sugar rise, and when my blood sugar rises, I find myself eating more, which is really counter-productive.
Lots of things were happening which led me to get stressed, which led me to some very bad eating.
There are good things though - I am not beating myself up for this. I am taking an objective look at things. I hit backspace and re-write every time I want to say that I was "bad" or say something else that is detrimental to me. If I keep beating myself up for the times when I get derailed, then I am going to be less likely to bounce back, I think.
My brain isn't working very well to create good sentences because my blood sugar has been really high. So, this will probably not be the most compelling blog entry, nor will it be the easiest to read. But I felt like it was important that I come back here and post what has been going on and at the same time not beat myself up for it. For every bad choice that I have made in the last week or two, I am trying to make a good choice to make up for it.
I want to get back to healthy eating, regardless of what my hormones tell me to do. Sometimes that is one of the hardest things in the world, when you are having "girl-troubles" and your hormones and moods tell you to eat EVERYTHING. I don't have periods very often, and so when they do happen I don't have a good strategy in place to help me overcome those cravings that come with the period.