Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Today is Day 2 after a wild month of scary health problems, which are finally (mostly) resolved. I wasn't allowed to work out during this time, and I definitely comforted myself with food. Lots of it.
Last week I had the idea that when my health problems were over, I would do some sort of cleanse. Part of all of this is that we can't try for a baby for a few months, so that opened the opportunity to do something I couldn't do had I been pregnant.
Of course I went to extremes and decided I'd go for the 92-day cleanse. Luckily, with a few days of researching and considering my options, I realized I should maybe take it a bit slower. Now my goal is to do a 3-day cleanse in the next month, then a 7-day cleanse the next month.
In the meantime, I'm looking to chill out on several of my bad habits, so when I do the cleanse my body won't go into shock (making me much more apt to quit immediately). Right now my focus is:
1) drink more water (reminding myself that the goal is to flush out toxins)
2) switch out green tea for coffee over time
3) no more processed sweets
There are many more things I'm hoping to do, like add in more vegetables, no more alcohol, etc., but my main focus is going to be the three above.
So this is Day 2, at the end of a long, frustrating but mostly productive day. I came home late and managed not to snack on crap before dinner. I only had dark chocolate and fruit for my sweets today. I ate a reasonable dinner, although I nervously ate more quac and chips than I needed during a tough conversation with my brother (who is staying with us for a while). After he left for work, I couldn't wait to have more chocolate, so I had two small pieces. I was thinking about what I'd eat next when I decided to track my food in SP. I did, and realized I was already on the high end of my daily calories limit, and I kind of panicked! You mean, I can't eat a bit here and there, all night long?
This is why I'm here, trying once again to conquer my battle with food. I'm so glad to at least be aware of it, so I can try to change it. I just have to remember that I just have to keep failing until I succeed.