Wednesday, February 13, 2013
I am an emotional eater, more then I think I ever realized, my fiance jokes that I am addicted to food. I can be a healthy eater, I love fruits and veggies, and all kinds healthy grains, meat/alternatives, and dairy. I love to eat in season and cook healthy, flavorful meals but I have a problem with eating sugar and carbs to cope with my emotions. ALL emotions. A lot of the time when I over eat for emotional reasons I can't tell when I am hungry any more.
Here is a list of emotions I use food to deal with:
Procrastination : "I will just take a break for a snack" or ".. maybe I am hungry"..
Boredom: Thinking up ways to fill the time (tea and snack, etc)
Anger: Eating mindlessly while ranting
Guilt/Shame: "I have already ruined the day anyway.."
Celebration (happiness)- holidays, birthdays, parties
Stress/worry/anxiety: Food makes things temporarily better.
I can't believe how long this list is.
I often think that as soon as a period of intense emotion ends I will be more successful at living a healthy lifestyle. Except now I am realizing that life is emotional and that will never cease. There will be periods of depression and boredom (current unemployment) or stress (a busy job) and guilt (no one is perfect) and sadness (sh*t happens). Anger is normal, and I happen to have an anxiety disorder.. so there's that. There are always going to be holidays (Valentines, Easter, Christmas- which lasts like a month-, Halloween, not to mention- Superbowl, pot lucks, my birthday, everyone elses birthdays, bbqs, staff meeting treats, parties, gifts etc!!). Those moments might pass each year but they are reoccurring and if I don't learn to achieve a balance between healthy living and enjoying treats and coping with my feelings in other ways, I will have to face the fact that I will never achieve my healthy living goals and weight loss.
There, now I said it, time to finally act on it with a positive attitude.