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Ashamed

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

So, I took my new "before Spark" pictures last night. I know that I have gotten a lot bigger over the last year. I feel it in my clothes. I feel it in my lack of energy. I feel it my fitness level (or lack thereof).

I know that I need to lose weight.

I just didn't really grasp how bad I had let myself get. I looked at my previous Spark photos. And I compared them to last night's photos.

And I immediately felt ashamed. How had I let myself get to this point? How did I let it get so bad?

I think this is as big and as heavy as I have ever been before. And it hurts. It hurts physically and it hurts even more mentally.

This picture is my motivation to get better, to get healthier, to get fit. This is the last time I plan on looking like this. Ever.

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EGRAMMY 2/14/2013 3:15PM

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KATHYJO56 2/14/2013 12:41AM

    Neil, Please try not to see the shame that I feel when I see my before pics. The good part is, when I see those pics. I don't even know that lady anymore. The same will happen for you. emoticon

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ANDREAG89 2/13/2013 10:30PM

    It's a tough thing for us to see ourselves as we are, isn't it? I've just gotten into taking pics of myself, and I am unhappy I've done this to myself, just like you are.

So make it your motivator to have pictures of yourself that you are happy with. You can do it!

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